Friday, February 12, 2010

Two days or a month or a year...

I haven't been writing lately, but not because I don't have anything to say. Starting June 1st, 2009, the Lord had me sell or give away all my possessions, quit my job, and go out on the road to completely trust in Him. I have had many grand adventures since then, learning great spiritual truths that the Lord would have me to know. It has not always been easy.

When the children of Isreal were out in the wilderness the Lord led them by day with a cloud, and by night with a pillar of fire.
Num 9:16 So it was alway: the cloud covered it [by day], and the appearance of fire by night.
Num 9:17 And when the cloud was taken up from the tabernacle, then after that the children of Israel journeyed: and in the place where the cloud abode, there the children of Israel pitched their tents.
Num 9:18 At the commandment of the LORD the children of Israel journeyed, and at the commandment of the LORD they pitched: as long as the cloud abode upon the tabernacle they rested in their tents.
Num 9:19 And when the cloud tarried long upon the tabernacle many days, then the children of Israel kept the charge of the LORD, and journeyed not.
Num 9:20 And [so] it was, when the cloud was a few days upon the tabernacle; according to the commandment of the LORD they abode in their tents, and according to the commandment of the LORD they journeyed.
Num 9:21 And [so] it was, when the cloud abode from even unto the morning, and [that] the cloud was taken up in the morning, then they journeyed: whether [it was] by day or by night that the cloud was taken up, they journeyed.
Num 9:22 Or [whether it were] two days, or a month, or a year, that the cloud tarried upon the tabernacle, remaining thereon, the children of Israel abode in their tents, and journeyed not: but when it was taken up, they journeyed.
Num 9:23 At the commandment of the LORD they rested in the tents, and at the commandment of the LORD they journeyed: they kept the charge of the LORD, at the commandment of the LORD by the hand of Moses.
I wonder how it felt to the children of Isreal if the cloud tarried for a year? I mean, how much resting in one's tent can a person do? Especially given their propensity for whining. I only say that because I am beginning to understand what they must have felt.

I lost a follower today and for some reason it really bothered me. At first I thought, it must be because I haven't been writing, only posting other people's videos. But as much as I appreciate you guys that follow me, it is not about how many people follow me. I remember for the longest time it was just 2 followers. I realized that it is an ego thing that it bothers me, and not a godly reason.

I have been at my parents house since December. I just thought that I would winter here and then go back on the road when it was warm again. When I thought that I had that job down at the coast I thought "great here comes the promised land!" so when I was horribly disappointed that I did not get the job, I realized how much I wanted the job, when I am supposed to be waiting and watching and praying out here to see what THE LORD wants me to do. Then I thought, well, I need to get out of here and get back on the road around Feb 15th (or after my birthday.) But the Lord has not given me any indication that I am to leave any time soon (the cloud has not lifted if you get my drift.) In fact, there is a biblical precedent for a single woman to abide in her father's house! I have a room and a warm bed and three square meals and free wifi - what more provision would a person need! It is a pride thing that the Lord is showing me that I still have so rooted in me. The kind of pride that says, "You need to get a job and not be a mooch on your parents" But the Lord has plainly shown me that here is where I am to stay (rest if you will) until He releases me to go on the road again, whether it is for two days or a month or a year!

I am spending my days studying. I have been studying about deliverence ministries and casting out demons. I have been watching the news and praying for our country and our president (hey! the Word commands us to pray for those who rule over us so that we may live in peace) Until the Lord tells me it's time to go, then I will be here, waiting and watching. God bless for now.

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