A Fast

 

I'm writing this blog post old school. With a pen and paper. I feel like I'm at a crossroads in every aspect of my life.

The front door of our RV is broken and it will cost $1800 to get it replaced. My husband refuses to sink that much money into this place. I don't blame him.

After spending 6 weeks with no water this last winter, I really don't want to spend another winter in an RV. Plus, when the water came back on – our toilet was leaking and the RV guy (who I'm not very happy with) replaced it with a toilet that is too tall and now I can't open the drawer in the bathroom all the way.

Also, this last winter, the heater in my car went out and one morning I drove to work in 17 degree below weather and was concerned my toes would be frost bitten. I've been spending the last month or two trying to get it fixed.

First the shop put antifreeze in it and called it good, but that didn't do the trick. Then they replaced the thermostat. Then I had cold air in the morning and hot in the afternoon. When all was said and done, I've either got a blown head gasket or a cracked head. It's leaking antifreeze somewhere inside. The shop can't fix it because it's a Hybrid and the Honda dealership will charge thousands of dollars just to peek inside and find out the real problem. They said I could keep driving it as long as I put water in it before I go anywhere. That is ok right now but won't really work in the winter. Bottom line – I need a new car.

So, I need a new place to live and a new car. Possibly a new job as well because last week was one of the worst weeks I've had since I got the job. I took Thursday and Friday off just to get a break from the place. I did update my resume. I have a whole new layout and it looks pretty impressive. I have applied for a couple positions but will only take them for significantly more money than what I'm making currently. I am way underpaid for my current responsibilities.

I don't have any answers on any of the above situations so I decided to do a fast. I turned off my computer Friday night and won't turn it back on until Sunday morning when I will post this blog.

Sitting here in silence, drinking my coffee, I realized the irony of the situation. If you are looking for a job, or a car, or an apartment or a house, you go on the computer! Getting on the computer is the first thing I do in the morning and the last thing I do before going to bed. Day after day after day.

But the truth is – I don't need answers from the computer. I need answers from the Lord. Maybe, by the time this is posted I will have answers. We shall see.

(I wrote this yesterday morning. By yesterday afternoon, I had a new car. It's a really nice car too. Nicer than any car I've ever owned. Over and above what I could ask or think. See above photo. The Lord is so good to me.)

Take care out there.