Sunday, October 21, 2012


And then he was gone.

It is the first time I have had the house to myself in two months. I wrote in my journal for the first time since August 28. I got on my hands and knees and scrubbed the kitchen floor. I worked on my homework while I listened to the Martin Zender/Dan Sheridan show. I made my lunch and ate it and made my lunch to take to work tomorrow. I made the bed in the bedroom and made the bed again in the living room. I've grown accustomed to it being there and I don't yet have the heart to take it down. I swept. I dusted. I vacuumed. (okay I may have lied about dusting.) I washed the dishes and then watched as the water swirled down the drain. I forgot a pan so I filled the sink again and washed it. I took a nap all curled up with my hoodie on. I cried a little.

But I know it was the right thing to do. There is more to the story than I am posting - there always is. But I know the Lord is in the little details as well as the big ones and He is in control of my life. I am reminded of the verse the Lord gave me when I first came to Wyoming. Jer 29:11:

"For I know the plans I have for you. Plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."

There is a card tacked up on my wall that says "Our God is a God of hope and we know that nothing is impossible to Him."

Thank you Lord.

lots of love


Sitar said...

If it's any consolation, know that there is a pattern developing amongst women right now; that as they come into their own, they are having to say goodbye to the men in their life, or the men are just up and leaving -- much compassion for you my dear <3

Ma said...

Jer. 29:11 was the verse for the Sunday school lesson we taught yesterday *3rd and 4th graders). In my more literal mindset/days I would have considered it taking it out of context to apply to anyone but Israel, but now I just don't know what to think.

I am also looking forward to catching up with the new Zender/Sheridan show. I didn't know they had five already. Time to download.

wendyworn said...

Wow Ma! I didn't know you listened to Zender/Sheridan. Thanks for the comments