Saturday, July 23, 2011

Hope Deferred

(Little baby Blake is home now and doing well. Thank you very much for your prayers. He is currently on a monitor that is tracking his breathing but we are hoping that he is over the hard part and will be fine from now on. Thank the Lord!)

Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12.

It’s been a hard week. I had hoped I was going to get that job that (in my mind) would have been perfect for me. $15 an hour plus it was in walking distance Monday thru Friday 8-5 with 401k and dental and health blah blah blah. So I was very disappointed when that guy didn’t call like he said he would.

My aunt got a call from the owner’s of the mobile home she was in the process of buying. They decided not to accept her offer because they were unwilling to get the appraisal that the lender required.

So in an instant – both my aunt and I were sitting there stunned. The plans surrounding the buying of the mobile home, the timelines and the paperwork and even our plans for that day – all fell to the ground. We had prayed that we only wanted to do the Lord’s will and specifically prayed that He would open doors and close doors in accordance with His timing and perfect will.

We understood then, that the Lord had closed those doors. I like to say, “Well, that means the Lord has something better in store.” But that doesn’t mean that I handle the grief part well. The heart sick part is something that I am becoming intimately familiar with.

I had another good interview Friday and they said they would let me know either way by middle of next week. My aunt and I spent the day driving around the other mobile home parks in Casper. We have an appointment to see a different mobile home tomorrow although this mobile home is both older and more expensive than the one she was going to buy before.

I am very thankful that the Lord has confirmed the verse Jeremiah 29:11 for me, it is something I can hold onto, every time my hopes come crashing down once again. “I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord “Plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”

In the meantime we have been cleaning out closets and packing up stuff. We packed all the pictures on the walls in my aunt’s bedroom and the bathroom. My aunt gave me that little plaque with the Jeremiah 29:11 verse on it, since that verse seems to be the theme of this leg of the journey. We still don’t know how long the Lord will have me here, but it forces us to live one day at a time and to not worry about the future. I need to keep my feet on the ground and not keep getting my hopes up and my own expectations on what is going to happen, because nothing is working out the way that I expected it. That in itself is a spiritual lesson. Cling to the Father and be anxious for nothing, giving no thought for tomorrow.

Please continue to pray for us my friends.

Blessings in Christ


Marshall Diakon said...

Linda, I know that you have prior placed all your hope with God in Christ; so then, how do we find our hope with jobs, or something like a change of real estate?

wendyworn said...

I'm not placing my hope in jobs or real estate Marshall. I just need some answers that can't easily be talked about on this blog. Do you have hopes in this life that you have waited long on the Lord for? I wonder how Abraham felt like when the promised seed still hadn't come in year 24. I am tired that is all. Yet, I continue to post my life because that is what the Lord has asked of me.

thanks for commenting.

Ma said...

So glad to hear about Blake. I do hope the worst is over.

Marshall said...

I/we stand convicted of hope in the King and His Kingdom.
Curiously, brothers & sisters at the gathering in West Linn (OR) shared about Kingdom hope and new (different) expectations; letting go of people & circumstantial expectations for according to my earnest expectation and hope, that I shall not be put to shame in anything, but that with all boldness, Christ shall even now, as always, be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death.
[Philippians 1:20]
May you share what Father has long-time promised you? Maybe not here, but sometime?
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wendyworn said...


I have shared before on here although maybe just hinted at instead of just coming out and saying it, that the Lord promised me a husband. I can be all spiritual and say that all I need is the Lord and that is true, but I also have physical needs that at this juncture have not been delivered of that only a husband can meet. Maybe there is already something in the works, and that is the big question mark. That is why the Lord gave me that verse about plans for good and not evil. Because He wants me to pray like I did before, but He knows the plans and I need to trust him. I just have this ache in my chest sometimes in the waiting.

how's the weather out there in Oregon? It is blue skies and breezy here in Wyoming!
take care

Marshall Diakon said...

the weather here in Vancouver (WA) today is 70s, light breeze. :-)
I, too, have hope for a companion. But marriage is something to be taken quite for God and another; not for my own need or interest. So then, I am cautious of my self regarding. Even so, Father is able to see that we should have all needful. So I pray for discernment; that I will not find to trust my own mind so much as to not fully enjoin His.

wendyworn said...

I am with you on that one Marshall. I definitely want to be in the will of the Father 100%. But I can express my needs to my Father and He will meet them. His plans for me are good and not evil.

Hope you are doing okay today Marshall!

love in Christ