Friday, December 31, 2010
New Year's Eve
What a truly amazing year it has been. This time last year I was at my parents house, filled with questions and unbelief about the things the Lord was doing in my life. Today, I am at my parents house again - and after I help them get moved out of this house - I do not know what is in store - yet I am very peaceful. All the things I experienced this year ESPECIALLY my trip to Ontario, has truly strengthened my faith in the Lord. I have no fear of the future or death or the things I was afraid of, even one short year ago. The Lord has truly proven to me that He is faithful.
I have been contemplating what my theme is for the year 2011. I have been seeking the Lord to what His will is for my theme. The first thing I think of is losing weight - but that is always on my list of resolutions. This year though, I really believe that the Lord will give me the victory in that category, because like all the categories of the flesh, the Lord wants to reveal Christ in me in that category as well.
The Lord has been truly putting 1 Corinthians 13 on my mind for the theme for next year. I know the Lord is always with me and never forsakes me. Yet, I don't always feel like I am close to the Lord. When I think about intimacy, TRUE intimacy, I realize that I have never really experienced intimacy before in my life. I have had sexual intimacy - but that is based on lust and if you scratch the surface of that lie, you find that it is not really intimacy, just a trick of the devil to make you believe that it is intimate when it is not - especially when it is not within the confines of a marriage.
When I read 1 Cor 13, I say - yeah, I've given all my possessions away and would give my body to be burned and I speak with tongues and understand ALOT of mysteries, and all the while I KNOW that I don't have charity (love) alot of the times - especially in the "is not easily provoked" category.
So my theme this year - is love. To Love the Lord with all my heart, soul, mind and strength - and to truly be intimate with the Lord - and to love my neighbors as myself.
Please pray for me when you read this. My parents are both doing good. My mom is home and the doctors think she just fainted, they did not find anything wrong with her. My dad's biopsy came back and his muscle problems were caused by the evil statins he was taking for cholesterol, which he has stopped taking and is much improved. My parents just believe it was the Lord's wake up call for them to address the too many stairs issue of their house and get into a one level house. I know that there are no accidents when walking by the Spirit and I feel that it is the Lord's will that I am here to help them.
Dear Amazing Heavenly Father, You are wonderful and gracious and merciful! Thank you so much for calling me to this walk, to wait on You, and learn from you. I lift up this next year - for myself, my family, my fellow Christians out there and for this country - that your will can be done. In Jesus name. Amen.