Monday, August 23, 2010
Day 8 - At the folk's - Mom and Dad
My parents were very happy to come home and find me here. My dad said, "Maybe the Lord has brought you here to stay." He was not very happy to hear about my travels this week. He reads this blog. They ordered pizza last night and we sat around the dinner table. My mom was telling me about the family reunion.
"Your uncle Russ is VERY worried about you." she said.
"Oh yeah?" I answered.
"Yes! They travel by RV all the time and you heard about that old couple didn't you?" she said again.
"What old couple?" I asked.
"The old couple that was MURDERED in the RV park? It is very dangerous out there on the road."
There is a group of people out there, including my parents that think I have some kind of choice in what I am doing and where I am going these days. When my one sister found out that I was going back on the road she was mad. "Where are you going?" she growled. "I don't know" I answered. She said, "What do you mean you don't know!"
Do you think I LIKE to drive around in over 100 degree weather in my un-air conditioned van watching my gas gauge go down, having no money and not knowing where I will be sleeping at night. Hello?! I dont even like to camp! Trying to explain to people who HATE GOD why I will leave the safe cushy places of this world and go to the scary hot places because that is where the Lord has directed me to go. The Lord is teaching me how to listen to His voice, how to tell between the spirit and the soul.
Do you want to know what is scarier than being in the lion's den with no money and as far away from safety as you can be and still be in the state of Oregon?
Being outside of the will of my Heavenly Father.
He chose for me to be in Brothers and Ontario with no gas. I went there in utter vulnerability and trust that He would protect me because I was obeying Him. And I'd do it again. The only choice I have in the matter is - I could choose to disobey. I could stay here in my parents air-conditioned house with perfect internet access. I could get my job back at Worst Western or even better, just stay here and quilt to my hearts desire. Or I could look for a better job, I have 15 years of accounting experience and quite the nice resume. I could get an apartment, hook back up with my ex-boyfriend (he's a Christian too) watch some tv, go to church on Sunday - and stop annoying everyone with my constant exploits.
I'd rather be all alone in the badlands wilderness and be in the Will of my Heavenly Father more than all the air-conditioned comforts and riches of this world. If my obeying Yahweh's directions to get in my van and drive bothers you, don't read this blog. Because I can bet that very very soon, He will tell me where to go next and I will be on to the next grand adventure to go where He tells me to go and to stay where he tells me to stay.
Dear Heavenly Father - yeah thou I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil. I love you and I will go where you want and stay where you want and obey in everything and if I die, I die. I love you so much and I NEVER NEVER want to be outside of YOUR WILL. In Jesus name. AMEN.