Tuesday, October 19, 2010
The Lord my shield
I know I said I wouldn't be back until Oct 25th, but you know how sometimes the word of the Lord just burns in your mouth and you cannot hold it in any longer?
My desire is to do the will of the Lord and to learn how to submit in a Jezebel society. I see the wrongness of the women who stand in the pulpit and teach the congregations. I see the women who beat down their husbands with their words and never submit to their husbands. I see the women bucking the governmental authority.
I also see the brothers who never admit they are wrong and put all the blame on the women. You cannot have a Jezebel spirit without the workings of the Ahab spirit. You can not have a woman usurp the authority of a man, if that man has not allowed it to happen. I see the men who spiritually abuse the single women and say, don't talk back, you are supposed to be submitting and quiet. You cannot blame one sex without blaming the other.
I know that I fully lived in deception concerning submitting when I was in the world. How could I know anything different having been raised in this evil world with the Jezebel and Ahab example being my only teacher? I couldn't.
But now I have been washed. Now I have been sanctified. Now the Holy Spirit Himself teaches me how to submit to the authorities and to Christ first. I don't have a husband.
All my life in the world I was beat up and abused. I spent alot of time building up defences and ways of protecting myself until I became battle-hardened. Undoing these bad habits takes time. Every time I blow it, I cry out to the Lord to change me. Lord make me a meek and quiet spirit. Help me to submit when I'm supposed to and open my mouth when I'm suppose to. Make me a vessel clean for your use.
I realized that I was afraid to take down those walls and those protections. I trusted in my own defenses. I told the Lord my fear. If I let down my defenses what if I get hurt. (I know, I'm supposed to crucify my life. Don't you know that is what I'm trying to do? That is between me and the Lord.)
Then the Lord showed me that He is my sheild. He will be the one that stops the fiery darts of the wicked from penetrating into my heart and wreaking havoc there. He will be the one that puts my armor on for battle and it will be His protection that keeps me safe. He will be the potter that makes me into a new vessel.
O Thank you my sweet Heavenly Father. For your constant protection. For never leaving me in the midst of this spiritual battle alone. For always blessing me with all spiritual blessings. In the name of your son, Jesus Christ. Amen.