Friday, April 30, 2010

Got a job...

Got a job. I had the interview at 3pm yesterday and they called me at 8pm last night to see if I could start at 7am. So I worked today from 7-3pm. I think it will be okay. I am very thankful to the Lord because I have some bills coming up that need to be paid. This will give me an opportunity to get my van in top shape mechanically - and I know my parents want me to continue to stay here (but working of course!) I am "working for the man" so to speak. Hiding in plain sight? Yeah, two can play at that game. :)

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Continuing the preparations

I'm continuing my preparations to go out on the road again. I'm not sure where I am going yet or when exactly I am leaving, still waiting on the Lord for that. I have to say though, I really like that David Gray! The video(below)comes with several other songs so I was listening most of the day yesterday. I really love that slow acoustic guitar.

I got a call last night at 8pm to go to a job interview on Thursday at 11am. That will be my eleventh I think, maybe more, I forget. So unless I get clear instructions to leave by then, I will probably go to the interview. Please pray for me to get clear instructions from the Lord on what to do next. The Lord bless you all!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Possibly going out on the road again soon...

So when my friend was going to come over for the weekend, and we would hang out just like old times, I began to wonder if it was to say goodbye again, maybe I would be going back on the road. I have been waiting on the Lord here for several months, but the last couple days I was beginning to stock up the van, you know, just in case. This morning I read these two verses:
Micah 2:10 - Arise ye, and depart; for this is not your rest: because it is polluted, it shall destroy you, even with a sore destruction.
Micah 4:10 - Be in pain, and labour to bring forth, O daughter of Zion, like a woman in travail: for now shalt thou go forth out of the city, and thou shalt dwell in the field, and thou shalt go [even] to Babylon; there shalt thou be delivered; there the LORD shall redeem thee from the hand of thine enemies.
having two verses say basically "get up and go" says alot and is NOT a coincidence. I don't believe in coincidences.

The Lord always gives plenty of warning before he sends me out. I believe this is His way of preparing me. Although I do not know where yet. I googled to see if there was a Babylon Oregon (there isn't.) So I dont know where I will be going but I believe I will know soon enough.

CALEA and the Stellar Wind - The Corbett Report

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Nice day...

It was a nice peaceful day today. I am alone at my parents house this weekend. My parents went to a retreat and my sister and her boyfriend went to the beach. (Yes he did ask her to marry him yesterday and she did say yes.) An old friend came over to keep me company and we BBQ'd some burgers and enjoyed the chemtrail-less sky. Although it is quiet where I am at, the spirit realm is crazy chaotic. So I prayed for the people who are in the trenches today - doing the Lord's will. Joseph Herrin from Parables blog is teaching in Northern Georgia this weekend. Please keep him in your prayers as he travels. Pastor David J Meyer is still in the hospital with an eye infection and recovering from surgery. Please lift him in your prayers. There is a last days conference with speakers like Russ Disdar, Dr. Future and Tom Bionic. Please keep all our brothers and sisters that are attending that conference in your thoughts and prayers.

Thank you Heavenly Father for your wonderful blessings in our lives. Please watch over your people this weekend and fight for them against Satan's realm that would try to harm them. In the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Love your enemies...even if it hurts.

Isn't this flower beautiful? It is Hemlock. It is an extremely lethal poison.

I am hemlock.

So my sister, (who is 40 and has never been married) has been seeing a man for the last 4 months. Although I really wanted to like this guy, he just rubs me the wrong way. He has went out of his way to win over the affection of my parents, but has not bothered to treat me the same. When he comes into the room, I feel like I need to leave the room, and when I have stayed, he has said little rude sarcastic things to me. Instead of ignoring these little random events, or giving them to the Lord, I have collected them, and thought upon them, until I have a full-blown list of offenses against this guy. I have sought the Lord several times about this man. "Why don't I like him? - Is there something spiritual I should know about him? Is it me Lord?" but the Lord has been silent for the most part concerning this. A couple days ago, this man called my mother to ask her what my sister's ring size is. They are planning on going to the beach this weekend.

Yesterday, my sister told me that she thinks he is going to ask her to marry him. I said, "what are you going to say?" She said, "Yes". So then I, in my infinate wisdom and christianess (NOT) proceeded to tell her that she should wait to find out if this guy is a jerk or not and blah blah blah I am ashamed and embarrassed by the stupid and heartless things that came out of my mouth. Well, I made her cry. She said, "I dont understand why you can't just be happy for me." What an unholy BITCH I am.

I felt really bad about making her cry, so I apologized for my harshness, (but not my words.)

This morning my best friend told me that the Holy Spirit told him to tell me, "Love your enemies." As I was reading the Word today, I read this verse:
Amos 6:12 - Shall horses run upon the rock? Will one plow there with oxen? For ye have turned judgement into gall, and the fruit of righteousness into hemlock.
I knew then that I am not supposed to like this guy. I'm supposed to LOVE him. I should be praying for him and my sister because if they get married (and I think they will) they will be targeted for destruction by the adversary and he will even use me to try to accomplish that. I started to cry and to repent to the Lord for my unlovingness. When my sister came home I went to her and apologized for my words and my non-christian actions and asked her to forgive me. So we hugged and she said that she forgives me.

Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me. Put a lock on my mouth, and love in my heart for this man and my sister. Help me not to have my fruit of righteousness be a deadly poison to my enemies or my friends. In the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

YAY YAY! James Evan Pilato! Welcome!

Oh! and I always appreciate the lack of shaving on your videos!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Sometimes you just have to stop and smell the...Lilacs!!

I am home from the farm today. My parents asked me if I would care to join them as they went on a little trip to see a lilac farm. I said yes! So we went to the Hulda Klager Lilac Gardens in Woodland, Washington, about an hour's drive away. Their website is It was a nice little trip. My mom and I LOVE the smell of Lilacs and they only bloom for 3 to 4 weeks in the spring. I am thinking of drying some and making homemade lilac tea out of it, just to see how it would taste. Not sure how much I will be able to post this weekend since I have some plans, but we shall see. The Lord bless you all!

Monday, April 19, 2010

I'm sure his name is Nemesis...

Oh yeah! Don't let his extreme pathetic cuteness sway you! This little guy got out of the fence today. I am a bovineaphobe. Well, not really, but I also dont know much about them so it freaked my brain out that this little guy got out of the fence while the kids are at school and my sister and her husband are away celebrating their 19th wedding anniversary.

The first time I tried to get him back all the other little cows came to watch, so I think he was showing off for them and pretty much ignored me, as I first yelled and then pleaded and then said in nice soft tones to please get back in the fence.

I grabbed a big handful of alfalfa hay that they usually eat but his bored stare said, "Lady I got the longest best looking grass (that is always greener on this side of the fence I suppose) over here, oh look! Is that a lilac bush!" So I gave up for a bit.

I went inside and prayed that the Lord would please tell that little cow to get back in the fence. A little later the other cows got bored and went to the other side of the pasture (and away from the gate.) I tried again and this time I was able to open the gate and shush him through. Phew! THANK YOU LORD!!!

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Sunday Update - Corbett Report

Back at the Farm..

So I am back at the farm for a couple days. Here is a picture of the turkey egg (compared to a chicken egg) that I just ate in a fried egg sammich. YUMMMMM! Ahh, the farm is so peaceful, what a great opportunity to praise the Lord. Thank you Heavenly Father, for your great grace, peace and mercy on our lives.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

More from Joseph Herrin

More on Wilderness Survival for Christians from Joseph Herrin:

Wilderness Survival for Christians - Part Five

Monday, April 12, 2010

My Testimony

So I met a sister in Christ yesterday who asked me to tell her about my walk with the Lord. I decided to post the email I sent her with my testimony, for those of you who may not have read it before - to sort of bring you all up to speed on my life.

I have been born again for about 16 years but I was originally in a spiritually abusive cult called The Way International. I know the Lord led me to that ministry because amoung some other godly practices, they are one of the few ministies in the country that operate the speaking gifts, (speaking in tongues, interpretation of tongues and prophecy) according to the word, where it says that speaking in tongues should be done by two or three and that it should be interpreted, and if it is not interpreted than the speaking in tongues should be silent (as in not spoken aloud) but that prophecy could be done by all. Everyone in that ministry was able to speak in tongues, interpret or prophecy according to the "spirits of the prophets are subject to the prophets" Everything was done decently and in order as far as that goes. But they were very controlling and every decision had to go through the leadership and then the head guy ended up being sued because he had sex with someone elses wife that he was supposed to be counseling, the Lord led me out of that ministry.

Because I left that ministry, I was "marked and avoid" and so in one day, I lost my church ministry and all my friends and everything I knew for the last seven years up to that point. The Lord never left me, but I was very discouraged and backslid into the world again. Even then the Lord didnt leave me, just let me throw my tantrums like a little kid and do things my way. I moved to California and tried to fit in, but I didnt because even though I met alot of really nice people, they weren't christians, and I was different. I could not go back to the world.

Then I got pnuemonia and I almost died. I was in the hospital just asking the Lord to let me die, that my life had basically sucked up until that point. But I didnt die. I got better. I moved back to Oregon, where my family is. Got a good job, had a nice apartment and a cute, deaf boyfriend who loved me. We drank beer together and smoked cigarettes, played video games non-stop, had sex and studied the bible.

But then the Lord began to convict me of my lifestyle, showing me the grave sin in my life and basically showing me that I would be listed with the transgressors if I did not repent. I started repenting and starting asking the Lord to show me what the truth was, and weed out the false doctrines in my life. The Lord led me to David Eells and Joseph Herrin and other spirit-filled men's websites. I quit drinking and when I tried to quit smoking I found that I couldn't. I contacted David Eells ministry and talked to one of their elders and they cast several demons out of me, a spirit of rage, a spirit of condemnation and a spirit of addiction and a couple others. The Lord showed me that some of those spirits had been in me since I was a child, but that he knew I would backslide. He wanted me to be completely delivered when I was mature enough to appreciate it and stay out of sin.

Then the Lord started putting it on my heart to get rid of all my possessions, quit my job and go out on the road to really trust in Him for all my needs. He had me break up with my boyfriend which was really hard because I never had to break up with someone I was still in love with. (But he is still my friend and we stopped having sex before I broke up because he agreed that we needed to stop fornicating. The Lord is working in his life as well.)

My sister (who I had witnessed to) and I water baptized each other in the local river. Then I asked for several confirmations from the Lord that I was really supposed to go on the road and quit my job. I got several confirmations and I was even given a van that I fixed up and could sleep in if needed. So I quit my job and started out trusting in the Lord. I drove up and down the coast of Oregon for several months, but then I got sick because I had stopped taking my thyroid medicine and swelled up like a balloon. (but there was a profound spiritual lesson in that so I am very thankful to the Lord ) I am better now, but I am also taking my thyroid medicine.

The first real test of my faith came when one thing that I had thought was going to happen didnt. I began to ask the Lord, did I misunderstand you? did you really want me to go out on this spiritual wilderness journey or was that just my imagination. That day that I was praying and asking that, a friend took me to the docks in Astoria that I had never been to and I'm standing on the dock looking out onto the ocean asking the Lord if what I am doing is His will and a boat goes past with the name "God's Will" My jaw about hit the floor. So I told my friend that we needed to go buy a disposable camera because I needed to take a picture of that boat. When we got back the boat was docked so I took a picture and I turned and the boat next to it was named "Sojourn" That was a major confirmation that this wilderness journey is the Lord's will for me. I have looked back on that amazing day many times since them, just to remind myself that it was the Lord's will that I am doing this.

So in December I came inland to my parents house for what was just going to be a weekend. But my dad wanted me to stay here rather than camp outside during the winter. So I originally thought that I would stay until my birthday which was Feb 7. But then I filled out my taxes, so I thought that I would stay until I got my taxes check, then my van broke down and some other things happend (nothing so bad and I know that the Lord is taking care of all my needs) but I started to get antsy about still being at my parents house after all this time. I have since got my taxes and bought a new van, but I have not had a release to leave my parents house. Always before I would stay the weekend and then the Lord would direct me to head out in a certain direction or go somewhere I had never been. But the Lord has been silent on where I'm to go next.

I started looking for a job again, even though I did not feel like it was the Lord's will for me to work a secular job again at this time, but there was alot of pressure that I should be looking for work if I am still staying at my parents. So here I am April 11th, with no further instructions except the fact that the children of Isreal, when the cloud went down, sometimes it was for two days, or a month or a year. I know that it is the Lord's will for me to be here, but yet, it is very hard for me to be here at my parents house, even though they are very hospitable.

As for church, I checked out a local pentecostal church and I even went there this morning, but I do not feel peaceful about that church anymore and don't feel like I want to go back. I listen to alot of sermons online but miss having fellowship. I liked a couple people that went to this pentecostal church, but I am concerned about everyone speaking in tongues with out interpretation because witchcraft spirits also speak in other tongues and put curses on people and I have seen some of the things that have happened at the Todd Bentley revivals. There was a man preaching today that is one of their traveling preachers, today was the first time he preached, but I had a check in my spirit about him and when he called everyone down, I didnt want to go, and I felt very strongly that I didnt want this man to touch me. I had not felt that way before going to that church, that is why now, I dont want to go back. Maybe there is something wrong with me, but I dont know. I would rather err on the side of caution.

I had asked this woman to pray for me to see if there was a word from the Lord. She said the only word from the Lord she got was "patience" !! Isnt the Lord amazing!! Thank you Heavenly Father for your grace and mercy, for my deliverance and for this strange and wonderful journey you have me on. THY WILL BE DONE!!!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Sunday update - the Corbett Report

Warning: Obscene gesture in the middle of the video.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

We and They...

So my aunt got angry with me once and said, "They! You always talk about they. Who are THEY?" In a way she has a point, because the "they" can actually change with the context. If we are talking about vaccines being poisened we can say that "they" are: WHO, evil governments, big pharma, etc. If we are discussing genetically modified crops, they could be Monsanto or the scientists and corporations behind genetically modifying things (which they should just leave well enough alone!) They could be the government, evil corporations, the Illuminati etc. You start digging into any of these groups and start working your way up the chain and eventually you find yourself in the same place. Satans realm. The guy over at Prophecy Proofs refers to "them" as the forces of evil. He is right.
For we (the forces of good!) wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places]. Eph 6:12
There are only two men in the earth, Christ and Antichrist. There is only the forces of good or the forces of evil, the children of God or the children of the wicked one.
Jubilee on Earth blog said it best:
"There are only two sides, my friends. Good and evil. That's it. In any contest, war or battle, there is only one winner, and one loser. It's light versus dark, black versus white, Heaven and Hell. God IS your moral compass. If you choose anything else to guide you in this life, you're choosing Satan."
Time is short. The time for choosing whose side you are going to be on is now. There is coming a day when it will be:
He that is unjust, let him be unjust still: and he which is filthy, let him be filthy still: and he that is righteous, let him be righteous still: and he that is holy, let him be holy still. Rev 22:11
Choose wisely, the time of "there's still time to change the road your on" from Stairway to Heaven, is ending fast.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Friday, April 2, 2010

Crazy job interview day

I wanted to write about my two crazy job interviews at the coast today. The SNOW on the way that almost stopped us from making it to the job interviews. My new hat. But I am just really really tired right now, and don't feel like typing. I will try to say more tomorrow.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

NWO Next week April 1, 2010

New month, new day, new VAN!!!!

So yesterday, I got a call from a company that I had applied to over a month and a half ago. They had hired someone else, but were wondering if I would be interested in a similar position. So I agreed to meet for an interview. The job interview is on the East side of town and I live on the West side of town, so I wasnt all that keen on working for them due to the commute. I thought that I'd go to the interview anyway, because it is good practice and if I got offered a job, I would cross that bridge when I came to it.

As you know, I have been waiting on the Lord (with cash in hand) concerning a new vehicle to replace my much-loved but DOA van. So since I was going to be in an area of town I dont normally go, I looked on craig's list to see if there were any vehicles I'd be interested in.

I found an interesting van possibility so I called the guy and made an appointment for today at noon. But this morning as I was looking on craigs list again, I saw another van that looked ok. I almost didnt do anything about it, but at the last minute wrote down the phone number with the words, "alternate van", you know, just in case.

When I got to the first appointment the van had all this mold on the outside and the guy was hosing it off. In a word, "ewwww." So I called the alternate van number and went out to see it. He was asking $1000 and I asked if he would take $800. He said no, so my dad (who was with me) and I left. Then the guy called us back and offered $900 so I bought it. The inside (which I will show you pictures when I get it fixed up) is totally awesome and the back bench folds down into a bed. I feel like I have a home again. I was thanking the Lord that I finally had the go ahead to buy a new van and I was really glad that I had walked away from the other cars and vans I had looked at previously.

So I had just enough money to buy the vehicle, spend $163 getting it registered, $80 to fill both the gas tanks and $100 down on the insurance. I have a little extra to take it through Jiffy Lube and then I will be poor again. But I know that the Lord has my back and will take care of all my needs abundantly, when I wait on Him and trust Him.