Tuesday, November 30, 2021


It was a busy morning. I made coffee for myself and then my husband when he woke up. I take 3 scoops, he takes 5. Fed the dog, then took her for a walk. Made omelets for breakfast. Ran into town to check the mail. Swung by the store, realized I forgot to mail my dad's letter. I will have to get it out tomorrow. Bought groceries. Stopped by the manager's and paid the rent. Came home, put away the groceries. Made lemon bars and washed the dishes. Made bean and cheese burritos for lunch. Called my liaison at my new job to let her know that my equipment hasn't shown up yet. She texted me back an hour later to let me know that it will be shipping out tomorrow. Sigh of relief.

As I was checking my list to see what was next to be done, it started raining. It doesn't rain very often here in Kansas. I love the sound of the rain. I looked to see what time it was. 2:45pm. I said to my husband, “It's 2:45 and it's raining. I think I'm going to take a nap and listen to the rain while I can. I think I've earned it. I won't be able to take naps next week when I'm working.” My husband said he was going to take a nap too. So we all (dog included) laid down for a nap. 

I slept for about an hour. This is what I'm listening to as I write this. Have a great day.

Monday, November 29, 2021


So I'm disappointed in what I'm about to tell you. This is just an example of how everything is going in this world. There is just no getting away from it anymore.

Sometimes what to write on my blog comes easy based on what might have happened that day, or things going on in the world. Other days, I'm not so sure what to write so I had gotten in the habit of going to Tony Evan's website. There would be a little 15 minute sermon that he had done in the past posted on the main page. Granted the sermon was also filled with commercials about trips to Israel or his latest teaching series. The sermons were inspiring so I was willing to overlook the ads. 

I went to the website for a little inspiration today. Unfortunately the inspiration was in a different direction than what I had hoped. The little sermon audio was gone. In its place was a headline that states:  Your gift will help us continue sharing the hope and truth of Jesus Christ. Below it was a logo for Giving Tuesday. What happened to freely you have received, freely give? No more free word of God for you.

In the past, when I have missed a sermon on the front page, I could scroll down to where it said Sermons and click on it and it would take me to a page with his past sermon audio clips. So I clicked on the link to the sermon page. This time the link did not take me to the sermon page – it took me to the Apple store where I could download the free app to hear Tony Evan sermons. I'm not downloading the app because I don't have a smart phone. If you scroll down at the link it will let you know that yes, they will be collecting your data when you use the app. They promise none of the data will be linked to you. Yeah, I'm totally sure they are telling the truth on that one. So no more anonymously listening to Tony Evan's old sermons.  

I thought that I could at least sign up for the weekly email newsletter. I guess not without giving my mailing address. Why would I need to give my mailing address for an email newsletter? I was beginning to get very sad. 

On a whim I decided to look up Giving Tuesday (here) If you scroll past all the wonderful sounding fluff about giving and ways to do it, you come to the leadership supporter. Yep. Right there in big letters: Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation. So there you go. Tony Evans has sold out to the enemy. Maybe he is not aware of what is going on with his website, but I doubt it. These are sad dark days indeed.  

UPDATE - the giving tuesday logo has been taken off Tony's website as of Dec. 1st. 

Saturday, November 27, 2021


Our Thanksgiving was nice. I drove to Junction City to pick up Thanksgiving dinners from Cracker Barrel that I had ordered the week before. It was really delicious! We had just enough leftovers for turkey sandwiches for dinner (which is the best part of Thanksgiving!) It was a wonderful day and my husband and I were happy with the way it turned out.

This morning, I drove into Abilene to check the mail and pick up groceries. The lights on the metal snowflakes on Buckeye Avenue are actually blue, not white, like I first thought. Hmmmm. My equipment for my new job has not shown up yet. I started to worry. My new job starts in little over a week. 

I started to feel some pressure about my responsibilities. My husband is down, letting his hernia heal. Making sure that everything runs smoothly in the household all falls on me. I was thinking about how I'm going to accomplish it all and work at the same time. I don't complain and I hide my feelings about it for the most part. I thought about that saying. You know, the one where they say it takes great pressure to turn coal into diamonds. It made me smile. Then I thought that they are probably lying about that too. Coal and diamonds could actually be two different naturally occurring elements. There is no way to check if it's true or not either. Lying bastards.

When I got home, I started to write this blog post, but the dog was sitting there staring at me. I could tell she wanted to take a walk. She has one of those permanently sad faces and big brown eyes so you could almost forget that she is a manipulative bitch. Someday, I will tell you the story about my relationship with her. I tell her, okay. I get my scarf on to cover my ears and put on my jacket because it is cold outside. Once we get outside, I'm kind of glad I have a dog. She's like a blessing and a curse. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't have known that it is a beautiful day outside. 

We come back into the house and I start writing this post again. “I know you are feeling a lot of pressure,” my husband says. I was shocked that he knew that! I thought I was hiding it. I guess the Academy Award does not go to me. We talked about everything that I was worrying about and I felt much better. We are in agreement that God will make sure that all our needs are met, including little things that need to be done. I don't know if I said this or not, but I have the best husband ever. We have a really good relationship. Not sure I could handle all the dark things going on in the world if it wasn't for him. This post ended up being different than when I first sat down. I'm just thanking the Lord again, for how much He cares about my life and the many blessings he has given me. And especially for my good husband. 

Thursday, November 25, 2021


I have a lot to be thankful for today. A year ago this month my husband was very sick and in the hospital. The hospitalist (who I did not like from the moment he opened his mouth) told us that my husband only had a few months to live, if that. My husband had serious health issues, but it was his hernia that was hurting him the most. They told him that they could not do surgery due to his other health conditions. They gave him a bunch of prescriptions, told him to see his regular doctor in a couple weeks, and sent him home. 

We went to see his regular doctor. His doctor recommended getting the you know what but my husband informed him we would NOT be getting the you know what. Then his doctor got very serious. He rolled his little stool over to us and put a hand on our knees. “I really think you should get the (you know what.) You know Donald and Melania both got it and Dr. Fauci is a brilliant virologist.” I had to bite my tongue at that point. Oh. You don't know how angry I got. If I would have said anything, I'm sure I would have started screaming at him and he would never had heard the end of it. We decided when we got home that his doctor was either in on it, or a complete brainwashed idiot. Regardless, his doctor could no longer be trusted. For that matter, no one in the medical profession could now be trusted.

My husband got worse and worse. He could barely get out of bed, he was so weak. I was worried about going to work and leaving him alone during the day. He was so bad one day that I actually called his dad to tell him that I wasn't sure how much longer he would be with us. But the Lord has other plans for my husband. My husband decided to take charge of his health issues. He changed his lifestyle and his diet. He weaned himself off all the drugs the doctor had prescribed and he started to get better. His hernia was still a problem, but he started to get his strength back. 

Fast forward to today. My husband is still with us. A couple weeks back we ordered some hernia poultices from a health store online. We should have ordered them a lot sooner, but they are expensive. They started working right away, and for the first time, his hernia is starting to heal. It's only been a couple days that he has been using them, but he could tell the difference the first night. Thank you God.

He still has good days and bad days. While his hernia is healing, we felt it best that he didn't move around too much. He felt really bad about not being able to cook Thanksgiving dinner, but I told him that I would handle it. (Not the cooking, just the dinner. Lol!) I ordered thanksgiving dinner from Cracker Barrel and I will go pick it up later. 

Thank you Lord for all the ways you take care of us and especially for healing my husband. Although I am especially thankful today, thinking back on the last year, I am thankful everyday for all the big (and little) blessings the Lord gives us. I hope everyone has a wonderful day. 

Tuesday, November 23, 2021

Brownies Make Things Better


The satellite guy finally showed up yesterday and hooked up our new dish. It is huge! Now I'm ready for my new job. The equipment for the job should be showing up any day now. We have a new home phone with a local number. First time in years.

My husband has not been feeling well lately (more on that later). I am making him some brownies. The store had boxed treats on sale, 2 for $4, so I bought lemon bars for later. I went shopping today because I know tomorrow will be really busy and we were out of everything. I've been very busy with stuff around the house, so I will write again soon.

Saturday, November 20, 2021

Beware the Trending of Words

 Picture from here

Apparently, the above is starting to trend among those who have not rolled up a sleeve yet. It started late September when a person mentioned it on Tik Tok, which was quickly picked up by MSN (here) and The New York Post (here).  I hadn't heard it until Mike Adams mentioned it on his podcast yesterday. This is the article he posted about it (here). 

I like to listen to Mike Adams podcasts because I hear about stuff I wouldn't normally hear from the news. But, I am also aware that there are serious gatekeeper overtures in what he talks about and this particular article made me very suspicious. Also, the guy is a billionaire. They are all in the big club, and 'you ain't in it'. I'm not saying he IS a gatekeeper. Just – you really can't trust anyone these days, especially those who are still allowed to speak in this time of extreme censorship. 

Nothing trends these days unless the forces of evil want it to. Every single form of propaganda is being used against the people of the earth. Pick a side, any side, we have a whopper of a lie to tell you. Trying to find the truth out there is like finding a piece of hay in stacks full of needles. Needles, needles everywhere. If you are pro-needle stand in this line and if you are anti-needle stand in this line. Still on the fence? We have a line for you right over here. Look at all the pretty lines. Right where we want you.

There is only one Truth. That truth is Jesus Christ. Pray for discernment on any thing you read and let God open your eyes. Don't bother watching anything on TV, it is all deception. Not to mention, that it has gotten so filthy (especially commercials) that it just isn't worth it to have all the junk go right into your hypnotized mind. Just turn it off. And don't use the term from the picture when referring to yourself. I believe it is not going to turn out well for you. 

Be careful out there my friends. 

Friday, November 19, 2021

More on Flooding

 I am including a link to a video from Blazing Press where he discusses some of the flood damage that happened in Canada from the same storm front. I guess Canada got hit hard with roads and railways destroyed. Here is the link:

Blazing Press

Thursday, November 18, 2021

Flooding in Otis, Oregon


I found out yesterday that the RV park we used to live at in Oregon was totally flooded last week. Here is an excellent article about it:

Newport times

This article also mentions the Echo fire that evacuated the same RV park September before last. My husband and I were evacuated during that fire and spent a week in a hotel in McMinnville. That was not a naturally occurring forest fire. The buildings in that area were totally destroyed but most of the trees were left standing. I don't believe the flooding was naturally occurring either. The article states that the flooding occurred because of “Atmospheric Rivers”. What a joke. Here is what NOAA says about atmospheric rivers:

Although atmospheric rivers come in many shapes and sizes, those that contain the largest amounts of water vapor and the strongest winds can create extreme rainfall and floods, often by stalling over watersheds vulnerable to flooding. These events can disrupt travel, induce mudslides and cause catastrophic damage to life and property. A well-known example is the "Pineapple Express," a strong atmospheric river that is capable of bringing moisture from the tropics near Hawaii over to the U.S. West Coast. - NOAA – Pineapple Express – yes they are mocking us. 

The National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration is actually a part of the US Department of Commerce. Now why would the Dept. of Commerce be interested in this sort of thing? Could there be money to be made by flooding out entire communities? Why yes there can. Most insurance companies do not cover floods. Flood insurance has to be purchased separately.

According to a CNN article, (here), the National Weather Service stated, - By late Thursday an atmospheric river event is expected to begin. Now how would they know that? Could it have been a planned event? Of course it could. 

There used to be a company called A Q U I E S S that all mention of has been scrubbed from the internet including Wikipedia. They were pretty open about their weather mod(ification) technology. Here is a very old you-tube video of their CEO laughing about how he would NEVER use this technology for flooding:

What a douchebag. Here is an interview he did:

Here is a mention of the company with a PDF talking about their oh so benevolent work in Africa that has somehow missed the scrubbing. Read it while you can – Here

Here is a video where the news is mocking us while they actually tell the truth for a change:

So yeah. I'm pretty sure that is what happened in Otis. Thank the Lord, He moved us out of there. I'm sure the attacks will continue on the poor people who live in that area. 

Wednesday, November 17, 2021

Winter is Coming

The satellite guy showed up for about 20 minutes yesterday. He took a look around and said he had to order a bunch of stuff and promises to be back on Monday and actually do something. I will believe it when I see it.

The flags are gone on Buckeye Avenue. They have been replaced with big metal snowflakes with tiny white lights. I will have to come back and see them when it is dark. I stop and check the mail. Nothing but a newspaper with local holiday sales. I am waiting for the equipment for my new job and some medical supplies we ordered for my husband. I will have to check again tomorrow.

I stop by the store to get a few things. I find myself standing in front of a holiday display for teas. They have Pumpkin Spice and I am trying to decide if I should buy some. I love the concept of tea. All the beautiful boxes with flavors that sound so good. But my actual experience with tea has been fairly disappointing. I once bought a box of Spiced Apple tea. I made a big deal of heating up the water and getting out the cup. It smelled so good as I was steeping it that my mouth was watering by the time I could take a sip. Pardon my French but it really tasted like shit. That box is still taking up valuable space in my cabinet.

With the exception of Chamomile, I have not been able to find any teas that I really like. Once while I was social distancing in the check-out line at Bi-Mart, I found myself waiting in the tea aisle. Right at eye level was a box of Bigelow tea called Sleep. It was a Lavender and Chamomile blend. I decided to impulse buy it. Not only was it delicious, but it actually did help me sleep. I have never been able to find that tea again at the store. I have one individually wrapped tea bag left. I am saving it for the Zombie Apocalypse. Should be any day now. The Pumpkin Spice is six dollars a box. I decide not to buy it.

It is dark and cold outside this afternoon. It is dark in the house as well. I am really unmotivated to do anything and I have a sink full of dirty dishes that really need to be washed. I tell my husband that I don't really want to do anything today and he tells me I don't have to. SWEET! I'm just going to take it easy for the rest of the day.

Tuesday, November 16, 2021

Mandela Effects

The satellite guy called yesterday to say he wasn't going to make it and rescheduled for today. We spent some time re-leveling the RV and I put heavy stone bricks under the tires and jacks. My arms are a little sore this morning.

I've known about the Mandela Effects in the King Jame's bible for several years. Remember how it was the lion that would lay down with the lamb? Yeah, well now it's the wolf (Isaiah 11:6, 65:25). Lions can be good or bad, but wolves are always bad in the bible. If you are not familiar with the Mandela Effect you can look it up on Duck Duck Go. (Don't use Google. They have abandoned their “Don't be Evil” stance.)

Somehow, I thought that the book of Revelation was safe because there were very specific curses on anyone who added to, or took away any words from that book.

I warn everyone who hears the words of the prophecy of this scroll: if anyone adds anything to them, God will add to that person the plagues described in this scroll. And if anyone takes words away from this scroll of prophecy, God will take away from that person any share in the tree of life and in the Holy City, which are described in this scroll. - Revelation 22: 18 and 19, New International Version

So the night before yesterday, I was reading Revelation 17 about Mystery Babylon and how she was drunken with the blood of the saints and the blood of something else that I can't quite remember. I was so tired, that I stopped reading and decided that I would re-read that chapter the next night and I went to sleep. Last night when I was reading it again, in verse 8 it said that the something else was the blood of the “martyrs of Jesus”. I immediately knew that was not what it said the night before. I got back out of bed and looked at other translations to see if there was something else there. The New International version as well as Young's literal translation both said “the blood of those who had the testimony of Jesus”. I knew that was definitely closer to what I had read the last time. I guess the forces of evil do not care if they piss God off.

It was a reminder that although we are safe and peaceful here in our little spot, the spiritual battle is still raging. The bible has been allowed to be corrupted and everyday it is being corrupted still. The famine of the word of God, spoken of in the book of Amos is here. I guess it has been here for several years already. If the words of the books we have in our possession can be changed, including the King James Bible, what else is being changed? Draw closer to God while you can and pray that your eyes will be opened to the deception going on around you. It's going to get worse before it gets better.

Here is a link if you are interested in more information:


Monday, November 15, 2021


We have been getting things ready for my new remote from home job. Today the internet guy will be stopping by to set us up with a satellite dish so I have better internet. While we currently have wifi through the park, I need to be able to plug into a modem. We are also getting a home phone. Our current trac-phones are 3G and they will periodically go down for a day or two. Plus – they aren't allowing us to buy minutes online anymore, although I can still buy minutes at the store and enter it manually.

We bought a baby-gate. Lately, the dog has decided she likes to sit on the floor next to me and quietly whine. There is a whole back-story on how I feel about the dog that I am not going to get into right now. Let's just say, she is not my favorite. The baby-gate is to keep her out of my area while I am working. I love the baby-gate. It has already paid for itself because the dog is always under foot while I am cooking and pushes me up against the counter as she walks by. Now when I am going to cook I just grab the gate and block her out. It makes a huge difference.

My job begins in three weeks. I will have four weeks of training before I actually work with customers on my own. I can't wait to start. 

Wednesday, November 10, 2021

Standing in the Fire

I am subscribed to several email newsletters. This morning I got a newsletter that I thought was from someone else. I was amazed at the spiritual growth of this person while I was reading it and thinking that I would make a comment on their blog and link to the post. When I got to the end of the newsletter I realized it was not written by the person I first thought. That does not detract from the profound insight that was in this newsletter and also the confirmation of things the Lord has been putting on my heart.

Here is an audio link to the podcast by Christine Beadsworth: Standing in the fire:


Tuesday, November 9, 2021

Driving towards the Daylight

I looked up from my computer and noticed the time. It was a quarter to eight am. “I gotta go,” I said to my husband, and kissed him good-bye.

I drove to Salina to take a drug test for my new job. We spent the day yesterday jumping through the hoops of digital paperwork. All the hoops would have been easy if we had smart phones or a printer or a scanner. But we don't. Luckily, I know how to be resourceful. I asked the landlady to print out the document I needed for the drug test. We used the camera's on our computer to take pictures of my ID and uploaded them to the right place. I called my prior employer and they emailed me a letter (on official letterhead) that stated when I was hired and when I separated that I was able to forward.

It's not a bad drive to Salina. It's about 30 minutes or so from where we live. The closer I got to Salina the darker it got. I actually had some interviews there last week and it always seems to be covered with thick black clouds. I thanked the Lord again, for my new job, and the fact that I did not get hired to any of the places I applied to in Salina. I would have hated that drive back and forth to work.

The drug test was over before I knew it and I was driving home again. Driving towards the daylight. Interesting that I found a song named that:

Monday, November 8, 2021

Job Update

 Just a quick update! I got a job offer today and have spent the afternoon filling out forms online. It is a work from home position! Thank you Lord!

Thursday, November 4, 2021

And One Ring to Bind Them.

I don't know how I missed the first two generations:

If this doesn't bother you than you truly need to wake up. Notice the subliminal reminder of covid. "That let's you know you are feeling unwell, even before you do." Yes, because people can be sick with this b.s. without even knowing it. Garbage. Oh, and it is water resistant up to three hundred and thirty feet. Yep 33. 

But what is even more ironic with this generation 3 version is - you spend $300 for the ring to give them all your bodily data for free, and THEN, they want to charge you 6 bucks a month in order for you to access it! And people will line up to purchase this. Unbelievable. 

Wednesday, November 3, 2021


My poor husband has ventured out to the Junction City DMV to attempt to get a Kansas driver's license. I asked him if he wanted me to come with him, but luckily he said no. No reason for both of us to have to wait around all day.

It is quiet in the house. It is not very often that I have the place to myself. So I applied for some jobs. It is nice when 15 minutes after you email someone your resume, they call you for an interview. I have a phone interview tomorrow at 11am. It is for a temp company, so who knows, I may be working sooner than I think.

Tuesday, November 2, 2021

Giants and Loss

Yesterday, the sermon at tonyevans.org was on Slaying the Giants in your life, based on the bible account of David slaying Goliath. Today it was on Living with Loss, where Tony Evan's son talked about his mother's death. At first I thought that the living with loss sermon didn't really apply to me, and that the two sermons were not connected. But on further reflection, I realized that it did apply to me.

Loss doesn't necessarily have to be a death in the family. I lost the job that I loved less than two months ago. I really did love that job. I loved the work and most of the people. I had some adversaries there that were constantly trying to make me look bad, but I knew how to handle them. Many times the Lord protected me from attacks I didn't even see coming. I never would have quit that job except for the mandatory vaccine requirement that just happened to show up.

The giant is the whole process of looking for a job. Filling out lengthy applications (boring!). Then they send you weird psych tests in your email box. Please check all the words that apply to you (and there is 50 words listed). You have checked too many words, please uncheck some. I'm sorry that I don't fit into your little corporate box. All sarcasm must be checked at the door for interviews. Of course I can do the work. No, I haven't worked in a call center. How hard could it be to answer the phone? Smile. Picture them naked – or that might be something else? Sigh, I hate job interviews.

What's interesting is the jobs I've gotten, I was just myself in the interview. Once an interviewer asked me, “There will be times when you will be in the office alone. Will you be okay with that?” I answered, “Well...I was in the military, so....I have been trained in hand to hand combat.” The interviewer's jaw about hit the floor. He ended up hiring me. I worked for that company for five years.

I haven't heard back yet about any jobs. I will let you know.

Monday, November 1, 2021

Fresh Perspective

We moved to our permanent spot yesterday. It is one of the highest spots in the park, right next to the laundry room and the pool. (The pool is closed for the winter). We have a great view and are surrounded by wide open spaces with lots of grass. The dog really likes it and wants to sniff every inch. I have to ration her because it is just too cold to spend a lot of time out there. I guess the guy who was in this spot before us decided to steal the nice fire pit – leaving a pile of charcoal and ash on the grass. Jerk.

I noticed a bunch of tennis balls on the lawn, but once I got closer I realized they were some weird fruit that had fallen off the trees. I looked them up online and apparently they are called Osage-orange or hedge apples. Unfortunately they are not edible except for the seeds. Too bad.

When we first moved here gas was $2.99 a gallon. Last week it was $3.06 and this morning it was $3.09. When I went to the store there was a sign on the bread shelf apologizing for the lack of variety. They were out of Rye and Sourdough. Oh well, White it is. I suppose the evil plan will be to nickel and dime us to death. The adversary is getting pretty ballsy these days. I just remind myself that the Lord will be dealing with him shortly. God always wins. In the meantime, the waiting continues.