Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
Christopher Story, rest in peace
Christopher Story of world reports died on July 14th, but I just found out today. Rest in peace sir.
http://www.worldreports.org/news/6497_christopher_story_frsa
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
It's never about the hair...
Poor Samson. I've been thinking alot about him. He had really bad taste in women. He loved them and pined away for them, and they never loved him back, only betrayed him.
The word documents how Samson ate honey from a dead lion. Let me put that into our terms. Say a person was driving along and hit an opossum. (which happens alot here in Oregon.) A couple days later you come upon the dead rotting opossum and some bees had made honey in it. Would you eat it? Gross, no.
I wonder what that translates into doctrinally to our time. Eating something sweet from rotten meat. Can't be good.
It was against the law to touch a dead body, let alone eat something from it, and he gave some to his mom and dad to eat, but didn't tell them where it came from. I believe that is when Samson began to go spiritually blind. By the time Samson had run into Delilah (a woman who NEVER loved him at all, so those people who want to act like that was one of the greatest love stories need to re-read their bibles!) he truly believed that his long hair that had never been cut was his source of strength.
His hair was NEVER his source of strength. The Lord was his strength! Little by little Samson forgot the Lord and started to believe in his own strenth. He stopped understanding that his supernatural strength was only when the Spirit of the Lord came upon him.
Unfortunately, he had to learn the hard way. First he was spiritually blinded, then he was physically blinded. He had to walk a very afflicted path, not to mention how much it must have hurt to have the woman you loved betray you like that. In the end, the Lord was with him, and he was counted righteous with the word acknowledging him in Hebrews 11. Someday, I would really like to meet him.
Dear Lord, help me never forget that you are my source of strength and my source for everything. Please let me never go back to being blinded by my own pride and willfulness. Take away my self-will and help me be obedient. In the name of your son Jesus Christ. Amen.
The word documents how Samson ate honey from a dead lion. Let me put that into our terms. Say a person was driving along and hit an opossum. (which happens alot here in Oregon.) A couple days later you come upon the dead rotting opossum and some bees had made honey in it. Would you eat it? Gross, no.
I wonder what that translates into doctrinally to our time. Eating something sweet from rotten meat. Can't be good.
It was against the law to touch a dead body, let alone eat something from it, and he gave some to his mom and dad to eat, but didn't tell them where it came from. I believe that is when Samson began to go spiritually blind. By the time Samson had run into Delilah (a woman who NEVER loved him at all, so those people who want to act like that was one of the greatest love stories need to re-read their bibles!) he truly believed that his long hair that had never been cut was his source of strength.
His hair was NEVER his source of strength. The Lord was his strength! Little by little Samson forgot the Lord and started to believe in his own strenth. He stopped understanding that his supernatural strength was only when the Spirit of the Lord came upon him.
Unfortunately, he had to learn the hard way. First he was spiritually blinded, then he was physically blinded. He had to walk a very afflicted path, not to mention how much it must have hurt to have the woman you loved betray you like that. In the end, the Lord was with him, and he was counted righteous with the word acknowledging him in Hebrews 11. Someday, I would really like to meet him.
Dear Lord, help me never forget that you are my source of strength and my source for everything. Please let me never go back to being blinded by my own pride and willfulness. Take away my self-will and help me be obedient. In the name of your son Jesus Christ. Amen.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
My life as a quilt - Part 5 - I can do all things...
I spent the day looking at bridesmaid's dresses with my mom for my sisters wedding coming up in October. Believe me, that is a trial, even more so since my sister's colors are hunter and pistachio green. I never realized how much I hate the color green until today.
I was also fasting for my work because they have flunked their inspections and may have to close. So I had a pretty bad headache.
I started to do the quilting on my quilt, (something I have never done in my life). My mom poked her head in my room, and I started crying saying, "I can't quilt!" just like a little kid. She came over to see what I had done so far. She said, I think you just need smaller stitches. So I took out what I had sewn, and re-did it using smaller stitches. I guess I can quilt after all.
"I can do all things through Christ which strengthenth me." Phil 4:13
In AA they use the term HALT. It is to remind you not to get too hungry, angry, lonely or tired. I have been busy from the moment I get up in the morning, until I go to bed at night for days, and dealing with alot of stressful stuff. I just need to remember that the Lord is always with me during these trials.
I was also fasting for my work because they have flunked their inspections and may have to close. So I had a pretty bad headache.
I started to do the quilting on my quilt, (something I have never done in my life). My mom poked her head in my room, and I started crying saying, "I can't quilt!" just like a little kid. She came over to see what I had done so far. She said, I think you just need smaller stitches. So I took out what I had sewn, and re-did it using smaller stitches. I guess I can quilt after all.
"I can do all things through Christ which strengthenth me." Phil 4:13
In AA they use the term HALT. It is to remind you not to get too hungry, angry, lonely or tired. I have been busy from the moment I get up in the morning, until I go to bed at night for days, and dealing with alot of stressful stuff. I just need to remember that the Lord is always with me during these trials.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Train station blues...
Soon we will be taking my son to the train station. It was a wonderful visit and I will miss him. He will be going into the Air Force at the end of Sept.
Dear Lord, please keep him safe while he travels and in the military. Also, please bless my daughter who I miss terribly and her family. In the name of your son, Jesus Christ. Amen.
Dear Lord, please keep him safe while he travels and in the military. Also, please bless my daughter who I miss terribly and her family. In the name of your son, Jesus Christ. Amen.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
The chastening of the Lord
I am crazy busy these days. I have not had a chance to blog. There is alot going on that I can't post because it is very personal and may hurt other people. I don't want to hurt anyone. I am sorry if I hurt you. The reason for this blog is that there may be other brethren out there on the afflicted narrow way, that may be able to relate to some of the things that I am going through. If it was the Lord's will for me to stop blogging here, I would immediately end this blog. For now it is the Lord's will for me to post everyday if I can.
The Lord is very pro-active in my life. He understands my weaknesses of the flesh and my tendency to ruin everything I touch. I wanted to host a teaching weekend for Joseph Herrin, but the Lord decided to have me several states away during that time frame.
I wanted to try to make it to Joseph's teaching weekend in Spokane which is six hours away. I had just enough money to go if I borrowed my dad's van (it gets better gas mileage than my one-ton van.) I laid it before the Lord saying, if it is your will for me to go to Spokane, let me have enough money and time to be able to go.
Immediately, the heater core went out in my van. (but by a miracle my son was in the van, noticed the anti-freeze leaking into the passenger side, was able by trial and error [and nickel and dime] to fix it. Then the power cable went out on my computer so I had to spend $80 to get a new one. That coupled with some other things that came up and I was left with $2. Notice that the Lord covered every need within that situation, yet still letting me know that it was not His will that I go to Spokane.
When I sought the Lord about why I couldn't go, He simply told me that I am still too self-willed. I am not strong enough at obeying to be able to hang out with the other remnant believers. I'm also way too vulnerable right now towards the opposite sex and the Lord knows that and is saving me from possibly grabbing Jospeh Herrin's ankle and begging him to take me with. Or some other boy believer that I happened to meet there, I'm not that picky.
I'm a runner.
I don't mean I jog. I mean, I get out of Dodge. I have moved 8 times in the last 12 years. The idea of going on the road for the Lord, living free with the open road was a dream come true. When it comes to obeying, we have to obey in everything without complaining, not just the fun stuff.
I have spent my entire life avoiding family situations, avoiding holidays and get togethers, avoiding my parents. My parents are devout Catholics and there are 3 pictures of Mary in the room I'm sleeping in and a Big Ol' crucifix as you come up the stairs in the entry way. Yet, the Lord led me here seven months ago and told me that until further notice, I was to stay here. I thought it was to learn about the governmental authority of living and submitting to my father's authority. It wasn't until just now as I am literally typing this, that the reason I have been so distracted by the men around me lately, is subconsciously I was thinking that I could escape this place if I was to marry myself off. The depth of my rebellion is vast. Being an overcomer means going where the Lord wills and being content with it.
Thank you Lord for showing me my rebellion, my weaknesses, and yet being so very tender with me. I love you so much. Thank you for being with me every step of the way on this straight and narrow course. In the name of your son, Jesus Christ. Amen.
The Lord is very pro-active in my life. He understands my weaknesses of the flesh and my tendency to ruin everything I touch. I wanted to host a teaching weekend for Joseph Herrin, but the Lord decided to have me several states away during that time frame.
I wanted to try to make it to Joseph's teaching weekend in Spokane which is six hours away. I had just enough money to go if I borrowed my dad's van (it gets better gas mileage than my one-ton van.) I laid it before the Lord saying, if it is your will for me to go to Spokane, let me have enough money and time to be able to go.
Immediately, the heater core went out in my van. (but by a miracle my son was in the van, noticed the anti-freeze leaking into the passenger side, was able by trial and error [and nickel and dime] to fix it. Then the power cable went out on my computer so I had to spend $80 to get a new one. That coupled with some other things that came up and I was left with $2. Notice that the Lord covered every need within that situation, yet still letting me know that it was not His will that I go to Spokane.
When I sought the Lord about why I couldn't go, He simply told me that I am still too self-willed. I am not strong enough at obeying to be able to hang out with the other remnant believers. I'm also way too vulnerable right now towards the opposite sex and the Lord knows that and is saving me from possibly grabbing Jospeh Herrin's ankle and begging him to take me with. Or some other boy believer that I happened to meet there, I'm not that picky.
I'm a runner.
I don't mean I jog. I mean, I get out of Dodge. I have moved 8 times in the last 12 years. The idea of going on the road for the Lord, living free with the open road was a dream come true. When it comes to obeying, we have to obey in everything without complaining, not just the fun stuff.
I have spent my entire life avoiding family situations, avoiding holidays and get togethers, avoiding my parents. My parents are devout Catholics and there are 3 pictures of Mary in the room I'm sleeping in and a Big Ol' crucifix as you come up the stairs in the entry way. Yet, the Lord led me here seven months ago and told me that until further notice, I was to stay here. I thought it was to learn about the governmental authority of living and submitting to my father's authority. It wasn't until just now as I am literally typing this, that the reason I have been so distracted by the men around me lately, is subconsciously I was thinking that I could escape this place if I was to marry myself off. The depth of my rebellion is vast. Being an overcomer means going where the Lord wills and being content with it.
Thank you Lord for showing me my rebellion, my weaknesses, and yet being so very tender with me. I love you so much. Thank you for being with me every step of the way on this straight and narrow course. In the name of your son, Jesus Christ. Amen.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Your mind is the scene of the crime: Inception
Although there is alot of Hollywood spin in this film, I highly recommend those that want to understand spiritual warfare to watch this movie.
I'm sure they didn't mean to, but this movie accurately portrays how the spirit realm invades your mind and plants thoughts there.
they have a plan, an ultimate agenda and goal to accomplish, they study you so they know how to attack "Every day they wrest my words: all their thoughts [are] against me for evil. They gather themselves together, they hide themselves, they mark my steps, when they wait for my soul." Psalms 56:5-6
"In the dark they dig through houses, [which] they had marked for themselves in the daytime: they know not the light." Job 24:16
they form a team to accomplish their agenda: "When the unclean spirit is gone out of a man, he walketh through dry places, seeking rest; and finding none, he saith, I will return unto my house whence I came out. And when he cometh, he findeth [it] swept and garnished.Then goeth he, and taketh [to him] seven other spirits more wicked than himself; and they enter in, and dwell there: and the last [state] of that man is worse than the first." Luke 11:24-26
they attack you while you sleep, and put thoughts in your mind: "Now a thing was secretly brought to me, and mine ear received a little thereof. In thoughts from the visions of the night, when deep sleep falleth on men, Fear came upon me, and trembling, which made all my bones to shake. Then a spirit passed before my face; the hair of my flesh stood up: It stood still, but I could not discern the form thereof: an image [was] before mine eyes, [there was] silence, and I heard a voice, [saying], ..." Job 4:12-16
they work within wicked men: "Hide me from the secret counsel of the wicked; from the insurrection of the workers of iniquity: Who whet their tongue like a sword, [and] bend [their bows to shoot] their arrows, [even] bitter words: That they may shoot in secret at the perfect: suddenly do they shoot at him, and fear not. They encourage themselves [in] an evil matter: they commune of laying snares privily; they say, Who shall see them? They search out iniquities; they accomplish a diligent search: both the inward [thought] of every one [of them], and the heart, [is] deep." Psalms 64:2-6
We have the authority of Jesus Christ to fight these thoughts: "(For the weapons of our warfare [are] not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;) Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;" 2 Cor 10:4-5
Russ Dizdar has a good teaching on inception as well:
mms://survive2thrive.gsradio.net/survive2thrive/072010.mp3
I'm sure they didn't mean to, but this movie accurately portrays how the spirit realm invades your mind and plants thoughts there.
they have a plan, an ultimate agenda and goal to accomplish, they study you so they know how to attack "Every day they wrest my words: all their thoughts [are] against me for evil. They gather themselves together, they hide themselves, they mark my steps, when they wait for my soul." Psalms 56:5-6
"In the dark they dig through houses, [which] they had marked for themselves in the daytime: they know not the light." Job 24:16
they form a team to accomplish their agenda: "When the unclean spirit is gone out of a man, he walketh through dry places, seeking rest; and finding none, he saith, I will return unto my house whence I came out. And when he cometh, he findeth [it] swept and garnished.Then goeth he, and taketh [to him] seven other spirits more wicked than himself; and they enter in, and dwell there: and the last [state] of that man is worse than the first." Luke 11:24-26
they attack you while you sleep, and put thoughts in your mind: "Now a thing was secretly brought to me, and mine ear received a little thereof. In thoughts from the visions of the night, when deep sleep falleth on men, Fear came upon me, and trembling, which made all my bones to shake. Then a spirit passed before my face; the hair of my flesh stood up: It stood still, but I could not discern the form thereof: an image [was] before mine eyes, [there was] silence, and I heard a voice, [saying], ..." Job 4:12-16
they work within wicked men: "Hide me from the secret counsel of the wicked; from the insurrection of the workers of iniquity: Who whet their tongue like a sword, [and] bend [their bows to shoot] their arrows, [even] bitter words: That they may shoot in secret at the perfect: suddenly do they shoot at him, and fear not. They encourage themselves [in] an evil matter: they commune of laying snares privily; they say, Who shall see them? They search out iniquities; they accomplish a diligent search: both the inward [thought] of every one [of them], and the heart, [is] deep." Psalms 64:2-6
We have the authority of Jesus Christ to fight these thoughts: "(For the weapons of our warfare [are] not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;) Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;" 2 Cor 10:4-5
Russ Dizdar has a good teaching on inception as well:
mms://survive2thrive.gsradio.net/survive2thrive/072010.mp3
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
My life as a quilt - Part 4 - without carefulness
I made this today, quilting has been very theraputic for me while I am going through hard times. There are a lot of things going on in my life right now. Most of my battles are all in my head and I fight against my own emotions and imaginations.
I got a crush on an unbeliever right before I left on my vacation and I truly believe the Lord had me away to save me from myself once again. I fought it really hard, wondering how I could keep thinking about this person. That was where the carefulness was coming from. Strange how carefulness is mentioned in these verses:
But I would have you without carefulness. He that is unmarried careth for the things that belong to the Lord, how he may please the Lord: But he that is married careth for the things that are of the world, how he may please [his] wife.I thought alot about this verse, knowing full well I do not want to be unequally yoked with an unbeliever, and really do want to attend upon the Lord without distraction. I sought the Lord in my anquish of heart and he showed me that the crush was not even really about this person, but the idea of this person and what was being offered, the idea of being married and wanting to send this person a post card or buy little treats and the whole idea of romance, like having someone who will take me away from all this. The Lord showed me that I had an image of this person in my head, and it was actually a form of idolatry.
There is difference [also] between a wife and a virgin. The unmarried woman careth for the things of the Lord, that she may be holy both in body and in spirit: but she that is married careth for the things of the world, how she may please [her] husband. And this I speak for your own profit; not that I may cast a snare upon you, but for that which is comely, and that ye may attend upon the Lord without distraction. 1 Cor 7:32-35
Maybe you are reading this and think I am a nutcase, and there is nothing wrong with having a little crush. Well, I want my thoughts to be pure, and pleasing to the Lord. I want there to be no sin in my thoughtlife. Sin begins in the mind. This crush was an attack from the enemy. The fact that I could not easily shake it off, like I have other mental attacks, showed a hole where the enemy can get to me, a weakness, a chink in my armor so to speak.
My son is here and we spent the day doing boy things like going to the local u-pull-it place and got a side mirror for my van and window roller-upper (my son tells me it is a crank.) He also fixed my stereo in the van that has never worked since I owned it. I am sure going to miss him.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
A day of dams, dead trees and eruptions...
So we headed home today and it has been a trying day to say the least. We stopped at the Bill Cody Dam which in 1910 was the world's tallest. We went to the visitors center and watched the little film about it. I was under the impression that the Lord did not want that dam built since it was plaqued with disastors and financial hardships and even deaths. Then we drove through Yellowstone park. It was my second time there and I have never seen a bear there. But we did see two mooses and a couple of buffalo. Half the park is full of acre and acre of dead forests. Some have been killed by some kind of moth and the rest has been fire or drought. It is too bad they won't let people come and clear all those dead trees out.
Then we saw Old Faithful. Luckily it was just about to blow when we arrived. We took some pictures and then back on the road.
Our hotel room has crappy internet access and the air conditioner doesnt work and until today, I would not let those things annoy me so bad, but 11 hours in the car can sometimes resurrect the old man nature. Grr at me.
I made the mistake of calling work and heard that the new manager that we had, that gave us an inkling of hope, has been let go. I was worried he would be gone before I got back. Another reason to dread going home and back to work. Please pray for me people, I beg you.
Dear Heavenly Father, help me with this impending doom feeling. Please take care of the problems waiting for me when I get home. In Jesus name, Amen.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
My life as a quilt - Part 3 - A time to sew and carefulness
I took an hour or so to finish sewing this, so that I can pack it in my suitcase. We are doing laundry, taking showers, packing, getting ready to go back home. We will be stopping by Yellowstone National Park tomorrow to see Old Faithful.
I have mixed feelings about going home. Things were unsettled there when I left and I was glad to get away. I have some unresolved issues there. Will I be staying at my nightmare job? Will I be heading out on the road again. What is the Lord's will for me when I get back? These are all questions I have laid before the Lord. I only want to do His will in everything. I pray for the grace to make it through.
I have mixed feelings about going home. Things were unsettled there when I left and I was glad to get away. I have some unresolved issues there. Will I be staying at my nightmare job? Will I be heading out on the road again. What is the Lord's will for me when I get back? These are all questions I have laid before the Lord. I only want to do His will in everything. I pray for the grace to make it through.
Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Phil 4:6-7Carefulness. That word is the same as taking thought as in "take no thought for tomorrow" which is good to know. I will concentrate on the business of today. Packing, preparation, running to the store for road trip munchies ;)
Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you. Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: Whom resist stedfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world. But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle [you]. I Pet 5:6-10Thank you Heavenly Father, for taking all my cares and the needs in my life and will solve them. Thank you for this trip and please watch over us as we travel. Take all the unresolved issues back home and resolve them, Lord. In the name of your son, Jesus Christ. Amen.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
My life as a quilt - Part 2 - A time to rend
"A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;" Ecc 3:7
It is interesting that "a time to rend" is listed before "a time to sew." It is even more interesting that "a time to sew" is listed in that list at all, since it obvious to me that this is a time of sewing for me.
When the Lord put it on my heart to make a quilt, I said, "What will I make it with, fabric is very expensive." but He directed me downstairs to where my sister had a bunch of boxes filled with clothes that she was going to take to Goodwill. I dug into those boxes and found many clothes that had nice fabric. Most of the clothes had originally been mine that I had given her when they got too small. So it was interesting to have my own clothes back to make into a quilt.
So armed with a seam ripper, I began to take apart those clothes. I ripped apart five shirts, 1 mini skirt (yeah, you know I'll never be wearing THAT again!) and one pair of pajama pants with little camping scenes on it (my favorite!.) I worked on it during my free time and while I listened to sermons and it still took a month and a half to rend them. The sewing itself is actually quicker than taking apart the clothes to use for the fabric.
The word rend is an interesting word. It means to tear in pieces. Rending your clothes was a sign of great mourning in the Old testament, but the high priest was NOT allowed by the law to rend his clothing - which shows the great wickedness of the high priest that condemned Jesus, because he rent his clothes. If you cast your pearls before swine (try to share the word with people who have no love of it, especially where there is no open door from the Holy Spirit) they not only trample it under their feet, but will turn and rend you as well.
But there is a verse in Joel where the Lord is calling His people to repentance and the timing is the great day of the Lord:
And the LORD shall utter his voice before his army: for his camp [is] very great: for [he is] strong that executeth his word: for the day of the LORD [is] great and very terrible; and who can abide it? Therefore also now, saith the LORD, turn ye [even] to me with all your heart, and with fasting, and with weeping, and with mourning: And rend your heart, and not your garments, and turn unto the LORD your God: for he [is] gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness, and repenteth him of the evil. Joel 2:11-13It is a time to rend our hearts before the Lord, to turn to Him with all our hearts, souls, mind and strength.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
The Red Horse...
When you lay your life before the Lord and desire to know His will so that you can obey and submit to doing only His will and not your own, you start to understand that there are NO accidents or coincidences. Everything happens for a reason, even if you do not know what the reason is...yet.
The Lord is training me to understand spiritual warfare and to discern the things going on around me. When I was first up having coffee this morning, and checking my email and reading my favorite blogs, I began to feel overwhelmingly depressed. When I started to examine where these feelings and thoughts were coming from, I discovered that they were an attack from the enemy. Don't let thoughts of depression and anxiety stay in your mind and emotions. Fight them with the Word. So I thought of Phillipians 4:8:
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things [are] honest, whatsoever things [are] just, whatsoever things [are] pure, whatsoever things [are] lovely, whatsoever things [are] of good report; if [there be] any virtue, and if [there be] any praise, think on these things.There is a reason we are to lead every thought captive, because that is where the enemy attacks the most. In our own minds.
While we were driving to Cody today we stopped at a rest area. I saw this picture of the red horse on the side of a bus. A fairly profound sign from the Lord. When I got home, I looked up the words "Red Horse" at the Blue Letter Bible website.
The first time red horse was used was Zechariah 1:8-11:
I saw by night, and behold a man riding upon a red horse, and he stood among the myrtle trees that [were] in the bottom; and behind him [were there] red horses, speckled, and white. Then said I, O my lord, what [are] these? And the angel that talked with me said unto me, I will shew thee what these [be]. And the man that stood among the myrtle trees answered and said, These [are they] whom the LORD hath sent to walk to and fro through the earth. And they answered the angel of the LORD that stood among the myrtle trees, and said, We have walked to and fro through the earth, and, behold, all the earth sitteth still, and is at rest.I am the earth, that sitteth still and is at rest. At rest in the Lord.
Satan also walks to and fro in the earth, and up and down in it. The next occurance of the red horse, of course, is Rev. 6:4, " And there went out another horse [that was] red: (the word is FIERY!) and [power] was given to him that sat thereon to take peace from the earth, and that they should kill one another: and there was given unto him a great sword."
If you have not discovered J. Preston Eby yet with his series on Revelation I highly recommend it. But you will have to read the series from the beginning because he doesn't talk about the red horse until Part 86! This is what he has to say about the red horse:
OUR GOD IS A CONSUMING FIRE, the scriptures affirm. I understand not why fire has been represented to us as something so terrible, so frightening, so hideous that we should try to avoid it. If our approach back to God is through fire, as revealed by the flaming sword placed at Eden’s gate, why do we always try to evade or get out of the fire? Why expend such energy and effort to try and pray ourselves out of the fire? Fire, in the scriptures, symbolizes two primary things: judgment and cleansing. But God is not schizophrenic in His nature — one side of His character disposed to forgive, redeem, deliver, save, heal, and restore, while the other side of His character is bent on vengeful destruction and sadistic torture of His enemies. His action in fire, like His action in grace, is pure, harmonious, purposeful, and balanced, directed towards the purification that leads to restoration. The fire of God cleanses the believer that he may qualify for God’s highest! His activity by fire towards the unbeliever is to the same end, conditioning and preparing that one for good results, when, having been broken and purged from pride and rebellion, he bows low before the Saviour, penitently receiving the gracious gift of life. The fire does not save him, but it removes the hindrance that separates him from appreciating the kind mercy and goodness of the Lord!Understanding that the fiery trials of the red horse are still coming - but I look forward to it. I will fight the thoughts of depression - rebuking the thoughts and feelings that do not line up with the Word of the Lord.
It is the Lamb of God Himself that rides forth on the fiery horse! The Lamb nature is not a weak, trifling, spineless little nature. Oh, no! If the Lamb nature were weak the Lamb would not dare to open the seals of the book and unleash all the portentous activities of the horses and their Riders! The nature of the Lamb is the nature of an overcomer, one who cannot be offended, one that can look upon the sin and evil in the world and not become religiously self-righteous but can love the creation to correctively, effectively, and redemptively deal with it. The Lamb is the Lion of the tribe of Judah who has prevailed! Divine judgment is not unto destruction, but unto redemption. Fire appears terrible only to the man who is unprepared to pass through it!
Thank you Heavenly Father for the Red Horse and the fiery trials that go with. In Jesus name Amen.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Another quiet day...
Monday, July 12, 2010
Being thankful for the little things...
I was seeking the Lord on what to post today and He showed me the many things I have to be thankful for, even in just this one day.
A good nights sleep in a warm bed.
A nice HOT shower with REALLY good water pressure!
Running errands with my mom and my Aunt Becky.
An extra fabric treat snuck into my bag from the lady at the quilt store! Nice!
Listening to my grandpa talk about Mickey Rooney and Judy Garland. I said, "And Greta Garbo?" He said, "NO! She was way before them! They made a big fuss over her first words in a talky movie." I never knew that!
Watching the videos my son made of his motorcycle from his phone. Seeing him grow up from being a good kid to a good man.
Having wonderful BBQ'd burgers in the air-conditioned house with the family.
All these little things that happened today, and more, are each little blessings that the Lord has bestowed on me and I am thankful.
A good nights sleep in a warm bed.
A nice HOT shower with REALLY good water pressure!
Running errands with my mom and my Aunt Becky.
An extra fabric treat snuck into my bag from the lady at the quilt store! Nice!
Listening to my grandpa talk about Mickey Rooney and Judy Garland. I said, "And Greta Garbo?" He said, "NO! She was way before them! They made a big fuss over her first words in a talky movie." I never knew that!
Watching the videos my son made of his motorcycle from his phone. Seeing him grow up from being a good kid to a good man.
Having wonderful BBQ'd burgers in the air-conditioned house with the family.
All these little things that happened today, and more, are each little blessings that the Lord has bestowed on me and I am thankful.
Psa 100:1 [[A Psalm of praise.]] Make a joyful noise unto the LORD, all ye lands.Thank you so much Heavenly Father, for your love and treats and mercy in my life. Thanks for this nice day. In the name of your son, Jesus Christ. AMEN
Psa 100:2 Serve the LORD with gladness: come before his presence with singing.
Psa 100:3 Know ye that the LORD he [is] God: [it is] he [that] hath made us, and not we ourselves; [we are] his people, and the sheep of his pasture.
Psa 100:4 Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, [and] into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, [and] bless his name.
Psa 100:5 For the LORD [is] good; his mercy [is] everlasting; and his truth [endureth] to all generations.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
My life as a quilt. Part 1 - Redeeming the time.
Here is the other side of the quilt I am making. I have handsewn these 4 strips in just the last couple days as we have been traveling. It is going fast. We are in Basin Wyoming now. We stopped at the famous Big Horn Quilt Shop in Greybull yesterday and bought some little grab bags of various types of fabric. As soon as I finish this quilt, I am thinking of several others I want to start.
I like to listen to mp3's of sermons on line. Mostly David Eells of Unleavened Bread Ministries and Russ Dizdar of Shatter the Darkness.net. I used to listen to Pastor Meyer at Last Trumpet Ministries (and I still strongly recommend to anyone his old sermons. Lots of pearls there.) and various others. I found that when I listened to audio teachings with a pen and paper in front of me to take notes, that I would space out and my mind would wander and I would not hear the teaching. So I would play mindless games while I listened (like Bejeweled 2 online) in order to focus visually on something, thus increasing my ability to focus on listening. But after a while, I felt that was a conflict of interest. I have given up most of my game playing as a waste of my time. If it does not profit spiritually or give glory to God, then I want to eliminate it from my life.
I bought an embroidery project as a wedding present for my sister who is getting married and worked on that while listening to teachings. I felt that was a much better use of my time while listening to the Word of God taught. I sought the Lord about what I could work on next, because I was nearing the end of that project. I like to embroider, but most of the time embroidery projects are stuff that you put on the wall, or knick knacky. Another conflict of interest from someone who has gotten rid of most of her possessions including all of my paintings and other wall decor. But the Lord put the idea of a quilt in my heart because it is both beautiful AND functional.
Part of walking with the Lord and being led by the spirit is redeeming the time. In fact, both verses that talk about redeeming the time, also mention walking, and understanding what the will of the Lord is:
"See then that ye walk circumspectly, not as fools, but as wise, Redeeming the time, because the days are evil. Wherefore be ye not unwise, but understanding what the will of the Lord [is]." Ephesians 5:15-17Dear Heavenly Father, Thank you for always being with me and for this nice vacation. in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
"Walk in wisdom toward them that are without, redeeming the time." Col 4:5
Friday, July 9, 2010
On the road today...
We stopped in Kellogg Idaho for the night. We are leaving in a few minutes (6am) and heading to Helena MT to pick up my son and then on to Wyoming. There are many believers who are fasting tonight and tomorrow. You can read more about it here:
http://www.unitedstatesprophecy.com/uploads/Fast_Pray_July_10-2010.pdf
I will try to post more when I can!
http://www.unitedstatesprophecy.com/uploads/Fast_Pray_July_10-2010.pdf
I will try to post more when I can!
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Catching up and heading out.
This is a picture of the quilt I've been making. It's my first real quilt and I like to work on it as I listen to teaching mp3s. It's just the top layer, I am taking the bottom layer on my trip with me. I am sewing it by hand (I don't know how to use a sewing machine. I suppose I should learn.)
We are all packed up and ready to leave on our trip. We will drive to Idaho today and stay in a motel tonight and then should be in Helena, MT in the morning to pick up my son. I miss him and I am looking forward to this road trip to visit with him.
Not sure what my internet access will be like the next couple weeks. I'll post when I can. God bless!
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
The afflicted walk and my mother's roses...
My mother and I went to the store together the other day. As we were leaving the house I notice her mini roses (pictured above) in full bloom. I said, "Wow mom! I can't believe your roses! There are so many blooms this year!" (if you look closely at the picture you can see tons of little buds that haven't opened yet.) She sort of chuckled and said, "Yes, they are amazing, I will have to apologize to your father." I said, "Apologize? Why?" she said, "Well, he pruned them really far, practically down to the ground. They were just thorny sticks and I thought they were ruined. I guess it was just what they needed."
Indeed.
Some days, I feel like a bunch of thorny sticks. It is good to be reminded that if I continue to submit myself to my Heavenly Father's pruning, some day - I will have fruit, and be like those beautiful roses. I wish I had pictures of the roses right after my dad pruned them, it would be interesting to see the comparison.
Thank you my wonderful great Father, who is pruning me, and some days I am too tired and sore and hurt to remember why. You are so awesome, thank you for the trials in my life. In Jesus name, AMEN.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
So much to blog about, so little time!
I only have a couple more days before my trip and I am working up until the day before. I have lots to blog about, but I just don't think I will have the time to sit down and write. I'll just try to post when I can. Hope you are all doing well! God bless!
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Friday, July 2, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
The Potters Wheel
"The word which came to Jeremiah from the LORD, saying, Arise, and go down to the potter's house, and there I will cause thee to hear my words. Then I went down to the potter's house, and, behold, he wrought a work on the wheels.There are alot of things going on in the world today. Alot of things on the verge of happening. Draw near to the Lord and seek him with your whole mind, heart, soul and strength, while He can be found. For the day cometh when the door of the ark will be shut and the rains will come. The only safe place is under the wings of the Most High God.
And the vessel that he made of clay was marred in the hand of the potter: so he made it again another vessel, as seemed good to the potter to make [it]. Then the word of the LORD came to me, saying,
O house of Israel, cannot I do with you as this potter? saith the LORD. Behold, as the clay [is] in the potter's hand, so [are] ye in mine hand, O house of Israel. [At what] instant I shall speak concerning a nation, and concerning a kingdom, to pluck up, and to pull down, and to destroy [it];
If that nation, against whom I have pronounced, turn from their evil, I will repent of the evil that I thought to do unto them. And [at what] instant I shall speak concerning a nation, and concerning a kingdom, to build and to plant [it];
If it do evil in my sight, that it obey not my voice, then I will repent of the good, wherewith I said I would benefit them." Jeremiah 18:1-10
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