Emoji Nation

I've actually wanted to post something about the prevalence of emoji's in our society for a while. The video below (which is an excellent summary of recent events) shows a comparison between emoji's and sigils that is very interesting. Nowadays people answer emails with the thumb's up emoji and it really irritates me. I was at Dollar General the other day and the credit card keypad asked me to rate my experience and gave me a series of emoji's to click on. Our society has literally been reduced down to what we can express through an emoji. God help us.

They Live

The movie "They Live" is free on you-tube this weekend. It's kind of a must watch. You can watch it here:

They Live

A Fast

 

I'm writing this blog post old school. With a pen and paper. I feel like I'm at a crossroads in every aspect of my life.

The front door of our RV is broken and it will cost $1800 to get it replaced. My husband refuses to sink that much money into this place. I don't blame him.

After spending 6 weeks with no water this last winter, I really don't want to spend another winter in an RV. Plus, when the water came back on – our toilet was leaking and the RV guy (who I'm not very happy with) replaced it with a toilet that is too tall and now I can't open the drawer in the bathroom all the way.

Also, this last winter, the heater in my car went out and one morning I drove to work in 17 degree below weather and was concerned my toes would be frost bitten. I've been spending the last month or two trying to get it fixed.

First the shop put antifreeze in it and called it good, but that didn't do the trick. Then they replaced the thermostat. Then I had cold air in the morning and hot in the afternoon. When all was said and done, I've either got a blown head gasket or a cracked head. It's leaking antifreeze somewhere inside. The shop can't fix it because it's a Hybrid and the Honda dealership will charge thousands of dollars just to peek inside and find out the real problem. They said I could keep driving it as long as I put water in it before I go anywhere. That is ok right now but won't really work in the winter. Bottom line – I need a new car.

So, I need a new place to live and a new car. Possibly a new job as well because last week was one of the worst weeks I've had since I got the job. I took Thursday and Friday off just to get a break from the place. I did update my resume. I have a whole new layout and it looks pretty impressive. I have applied for a couple positions but will only take them for significantly more money than what I'm making currently. I am way underpaid for my current responsibilities.

I don't have any answers on any of the above situations so I decided to do a fast. I turned off my computer Friday night and won't turn it back on until Sunday morning when I will post this blog.

Sitting here in silence, drinking my coffee, I realized the irony of the situation. If you are looking for a job, or a car, or an apartment or a house, you go on the computer! Getting on the computer is the first thing I do in the morning and the last thing I do before going to bed. Day after day after day.

But the truth is – I don't need answers from the computer. I need answers from the Lord. Maybe, by the time this is posted I will have answers. We shall see.

(I wrote this yesterday morning. By yesterday afternoon, I had a new car. It's a really nice car too. Nicer than any car I've ever owned. Over and above what I could ask or think. See above photo. The Lord is so good to me.)

Take care out there.

Clouds Without Water

I remember when I was a child, laying in a field of grass, looking up at the clouds. They were always moving. Sometimes altogether as a group and sometimes individually. I remember the edges of the clouds moving. Sometimes it would look like a rabbit. But if you watched long enough, the rabbit would morph into a frog and then stretch out to become a Volkswagen, or whatever. It was a lifetime ago, when the world was innocent and so was I and everything hadn't become compromised. It hadn't quite become so very very fake.

On my drive home today, the sky was filled with white puffy clouds, just like in my childhood. At first I felt joy. If there were chemtrails going on, it was behind the puffy clouds. You really don't see puffy white clouds like that too much anymore.

So I was enjoying the drive on Old Hwy 40 and kept watching the clouds. But then I started noticing something off. The bottoms of all the clouds were flat. They all seemed kind of symmetrical. The bottoms were dark, so I was wondering if maybe they would become storm clouds? Some of the clouds had dark outlines, which really got my attention because it seemed so weird.

Then I realized that none of the clouds were moving. At all. Not as a group, not individually. They were not moving AT ALL. The edges of the clouds, although accurate cloud-looking edges, didn't move. They didn't dissipate and form little baby clouds, or turn into rabbits or frogs. The clouds, the entire drive home, stayed the same. They were technically 3 dimensional, because I did drive under one or two as I drove, but not one edge, or cloud moved at all. As if someone had found a way to put extremely realistic clouds into the sky, and suspend them there. But while they looked like realistic clouds, they didn't ACT like clouds. So, wonderful. One more fake thing up in the sky. I doubt anyone else even noticed, and who would believe me if I told them?

It reminded me of Jude 1:12 where it states “clouds without water”, I think it's in reference to fake people but just now looking at the verse – it even states that clouds are moved about by the wind. So Ironic.

Did you know that Aleister Crowley wrote a book called, “Clouds without Water”? Apparently it was a book of poetry with erotic undertones, written under the pseudonym Rev. C. Verey. It only had a limited private printing and was sent only to “ministers of religion.” Hhmmm. I'll bet he did. A book of spells to instill ministers with a spirit of lust, no doubt. There is an actually pdf of the book online, but I don't recommend you reading it.

Then I was reminded again. “look up, for your redemption draweth nigh.”

Yes! There is still hope for us yet.

Take care out there.

Dog Tired

Sorry. It's been so long since I've posted that I feel kind of bad about it. I'm just working so much that I do the bare minimum on the weekends and catch up on my sleep. I'm not so much sleepy tired, just physically, emotionally and mental exhausted. Things are getting better at work because I've got a system now and know more about what I'm doing with the schedules. But no matter how on top of it I am, things like losing 5 CNA's in one week (3 of which were graveyard CNA's) keeps me on my toes. I have to give credit to the Lord on that because I'll have all these shifts that have to be filled in the morning and pray about it and by the end of the day I've got coverage. I'm counting it as a miracle. 

Here is the latest from Truthstream Media. I totally know how Melissa feels:

Take care out there.

Continuing Fall Out and Mother's Day

Continuing on from my last post, the tornado's keep coming. They promoted one of our existing nurses to Director and literally the day after that, the weekend graveyard nurse quit with no notice. Our poor new DON (Director of Nurses), while struggling to take on all her new responsibilities has also had to be the graveyard weekend warrior. I am helping her as best as I can.

After two weeks of doing the scheduling and cleaning up the existing mess, the online scheduling app we were using got hacked and multiple random shifts were deleted. I had to totally abandon using that as a resource and start over from scratch with nothing to refer back to since the schedule that was originally there was compromised and couldn't be trusted as a reference point.

So we are going back to old school paper schedules again. The young CNA's don't like it because now they can't see their schedules on their phones and can't send me nasty texts complaining about the shifts they have to work. Even though the situation sucks for now, I'm actually glad this happened. I never liked the idea of forcing people to download apps onto their phones, something I won't even do myself. If the internet goes down or there are power outages, our schedules will be safe. Except for the massive amounts of drama I now have to deal with, I kinda like doing the schedule. I sit down to work on it at 8am and the next time I look up it's 2pm.

I'm still getting a ton of overtime, but at least I'm caught up enough to have my weekends off.

I was at Walmart to pick up some fans a couple weeks ago and found myself in the kitchen gadget section. I saw a little 2 quart crock pot for $10. For ten dollars I almost couldn't NOT buy it, if you know what I mean. I absolutely love it. So far I cooked a corned beef in it and made homemade stew that was absolutely yummy!

Today, in honor of Mother's day, I'm attempting to make Chicken and Dumplings in it. Chicken and Dumplings is my all time favorite food in the world. I tried to find some recipes on how to cook it in a 2 quart crock pot – but all I could find were lame recipes. You can really see the Dead Internet theory at work because you can only find major cooking website recipes and most of them want you to use rolled dough for the Dumplings or God Forbid, refrigerator biscuits. No. The only way to make it is using spoon drop biscuits that will be all fluffy when they are cooked, just like grandma used to make. We'll see how it goes.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there. May your day be filled with God's abundant blessings.

Take care out there.

Tornado Drills

Over a month ago, during our morning meeting, it was announced that our facility would be participating in a city-wide tornado drill on April 17^th. I signed up for PTO for the 17th because I knew that sometimes, these things have a way of going live. It was nice to have a Thursday off, and I ran a bunch of errands and got some spring cleaning done.

When I came to work on Friday the 18^th, everyone was saying that nothing much happened for the drill and there were no adverse weather events. Then they tell me that the Director of Nursing quit suddenly, and I would now be doing all the scheduling for the entire Nursing Department, and Corporate added some extra responsibilities on top of that (for no extra money of course.)

Then every whiner and malingerer came out of the woodwork to tell me their sob stories and childcare issues and how they never work nights or weekends and that these are all the PTO days they to have off, etc., etc., etc.,

I may have been in shock a little bit, because I was surprisingly calm. The whole place was utter chaos and they are still reeling from the fall out a week later.

I said, “Yeah, there WAS a tornado here, just not the kind you were thinking about.” I ended up spending most of the day calling people to see if they can come in and work a graveyard shift since one of our CNA's was a no call, no show for the second night in a row. Oh yeah, this is going to be very fun, I can tell already.

So, I ended up working last Saturday, and as much as I totally don't want to, I have to work tomorrow (Saturday) as well. It is what it is, I guess. I was already so busy, but my checks should be nice with the amount of overtime I'm getting. Like usual, I just take things one day at a time.

Cederq – if you are reading this, I did plan on calling you tomorrow, but now I won't have time. I will try to call on Sunday, we really need to catch up.

I wanted to write about the nightmare of going to pick up my new glasses, or my experience with multi-factor authentication at work but those stories will just have to wait. Wanted to get something posted cuz I know it's been a really long time.

Hope you all are well. Take care out there!