I don't really want to whine about my life. Ok, maybe just a little. I've been trying to decide if I will continue with this blog because I'm so busy and tired that I'm just not sure I have it in me anymore.
As I've stated to several friends on the phone lately, I'm no spring chicken. I'm not even a summer one. Just an old lady working 12 hour shifts, trying to memorize volumes of information and being a full time caregiver for my husband. He had a couple really bad days last week where he stopped eating and thought he was going to die. But he started feeling better and is eating again. Now he thinks he may be immortal.
I have no time to get anything done.
When I do have time, I have no energy. If I do have some energy for a
blog post, my computer keeps crashing and it is so
frustrating.
Cederq almost earned himself a demerit for his
Debbie Downer comment on my Eclipse post. I prefer the term Debbie
Realist thank you very much.
Which reminds me. I'm sick and tired of
watching the enemy destroy this country in every single category. I'm
sick of their numerology and their astrology and their symbols and
their despicable ways. I'm sick of being poisoned. Of watching them
use their technology to kill off livestock, fish and wildlife in
their efforts to starve us out. What food they do allow us is filled
with chemicals and genetically modified. As much as it costs to buy
groceries these days, we have to pay extra if we want something to
eat that hasn't been messed with. I sometimes feel like this guy.
I
use to think that I wanted to know what the enemy was up to, so that
I wasn't blindsided. I don't care anymore what the enemy is doing.
They can kiss my ass. I want to concentrate on what my Heavenly
Father is doing these days. And He is doing amazing stuff if we all
just stop worrying for a moment to recognize it.
Last week we
had a really hot day. Hot enough that my husband wanted me to turn on
the air conditioner. So I turned it on. Nothing. No air came out. It
was just dead. I turned it off and on a couple times and it just
wasn't coming on. I told my husband that we have no money to get it
fixed. Summer is on it's way and the heat killed our dog last year,
so we can't be without an air conditioner.
I sat down and
went through various scenarios in my head for possible solutions but
there wasn't any. Finally, I said a little prayer. Lord, you have
never failed us. We have no money to get the air conditioner fixed
and we need it. Can you please just fix it? Then I went on to do
other things.
10 minutes later, the air conditioner came on
and has been running great ever since. Amazing. I actually almost
cried I was so thankful that once again, the Lord was looking out for
us. He is doing big things too, but we are not going to see those
headlines in red letters on Drudge. But know this, the Lord is aware
of the war that we are in and He will not let us fall.
Back to the idea of whether I will
continue the blog. I think I will. The small hold guy got laid off
from his job and then just stopped writing. He hasn't posted since
the end of February, and we all worry about what happened to him. I
won't do that to you guys.
Amazing Polly came out to announce
that she is taking an extended vacation, which makes me really sad.
She is a phenomenal researcher, but she is having health issues. Plus
the enemy forces went after her pretty brutally, doxing her and her
husband, that she needed to take a break. I completely understand,
but I will miss her. (when I went to link to her bitchute channel, she has a new video up. Nice. She's back sooner than I thought. Good for her!) I don't want to go that route just yet either.
So I guess you guys are stuck with me for the time being.
Good, bad or indifferent. I may go a week or so without posting, but
I will try to get at least one post out on my days off. If my
computer completely dies before I am able to replace it, I will let
Cederq know and he can post something on bustednuckles.
Continue to pray and stock up, the war is not over yet, but the truth is starting to trickle out. The Lord has His ears open to our prayers. Pray for your neighborhoods and your counties and actively pray against the enemy's plans. Watch and see the ways the Lord is working in your lives if you trust in Him.
Hope you all are doing well. Take care out there.
12 comments:
A Demerit ehh? Hmm, then you want me to accommodated you if you go dark. Boy, my price is high. You would have to expunge that Demerit first. We ever meet, a home cook meal, I will buy the ingredients. That is my price, and I will stick to it. (sounds like a country song don't it?) I am sure I can somewhat speak for the rest of us degenerates and say, when ever you post, we have have a post. Like you we are old and tired and know first hand living and making a living comes first. You have your plate more than full, like you stopped and eating at Country Buffet and heaped your second and third trip up to the buffet tables at the same first trip... We know the evil that is lurking and planning and implementing the works of the demon incarnate.
Ha ha! Ok, demerit expunged. I'm actually not a bad cook, especially if you are buying! So... everyone wants to know...what shall I cook for you?
I can be surprised, enjoy it actually.
My dear, I hear you loud and clear and I feel for you.
That air conditioning story is flat out amazing. God most certainly is listening and helping those in need.
Keep your chin up and post as you can.
Phil
thanks phil!
Glad you’re deciding on sticking around.
As for cooking Cederq his meal, you would get off pretty easy.
He hasn’t made it public yet but I heard from an insider that he pretty much is limited to instant oatmeal these days.
At the end of the day, this blog is for you. You do the posts because it's something you do for yourself, whether it's to vent, agitate others, network with like minded folk...it doesn't really matter.
When the day comes thst blogging doesn't do it for you anymore, well...then it might be time to pull the pin. That was more or less what happened to me. I decided one day I didn't have anything else to say and fely like I was sitting in an echo chamber. So I decided I was done. Well that and the constant BS with blogger and pulling down my posts.
Anyway, to thine own self be true. Do the blog for you and nobody else.
Just my $0.02CAD
PB&J Deathray, PB&J...
The burden of Misplaced feelings of obligation is unhealthy.
Thanks Justin! I could not remember the exact wording on that saying, otherwise I would have included it in this post.
Then just figger out who,exactly, are we obligated to. If there is a Feeling of obligation, then search inside for Why.
Motive is everything.
aww cuz I've made real life friends from this blog. it's a nice community that I am glad to be part of.
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